Did you have to go to a private school to avoid daily beat downs?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5038170&forum_id=2#44013365)

On the Particular Child You Cannot Have

The doctor clasps your shoulder, man to man;

You can’t have a baby.

You don’t stand a chance

Without impossible sums of money.

Even with them, being mauled by a bear

In the library is, you imagine.

Only slightly less likely.

Like a bear, you drift to a dark place

For just a little while.

You admire the torque of your hands.

Your straight, imperishable teeth.

It doesn’t matter, your lover comforts.

But in five years, will she be terrorized

By nephews? Will she moon over baby shoes

Small as an ear? She takes your hand now.

You promise her good hum or near uxonousness.

Travel, many guests. You say you are up

For anything. The words become true

As you say them, like reasonable prayer.

Child, spoken then, becomes a cave in air.

Waits to be filled with all the cloudy grace

And griefs you can heft

Dreams of blunting winter, the heraldic stars.

Honey that is bright and slow to fall.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5038170&forum_id=2#44013988)