If I have to self censor then the process won’t be worth doing. Either I go as I am or I’d rather not waste the time

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48253532)

on reflection i think it's more this

https://www.xoxohth.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&mc=70&forum_id=2#48255571

never been rejected from therapy before though

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48255724)

https://www.outofservice.com/bigfive/

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48253481)

High scorers tend to be original, creative, curious, complex; Low scorers tend to be conventional, down to earth, narrow interests, uncreative.

You are somewhat conventional. (Your percentile: 28)

Conscientiousness

High scorers tend to be reliable, well-organized, self-disciplined, careful; Low scorers tend to be disorganized, undependable, negligent.

You tend to do things somewhat haphazardly. (Your percentile: 29)

Extraversion

High scorers tend to be sociable, friendly, fun loving, talkative; Low scorers tend to be introverted, reserved, inhibited, quiet.

You tend to shy away from social situations. (Your percentile: 22)

Agreeableness

High scorers tend to be good natured, sympathetic, forgiving, courteous; Low scorers tend to be critical, rude, harsh, callous.

You find it easy to express irritation with others. (Your percentile: 34)

Negative Emotionality

High scorers tend to be nervous, high-strung, insecure, worrying; Low scorers tend to be calm, relaxed, secure, hardy.

You are a generally anxious person and tend to worry about things. (Your percentile: 99)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48253767)

Maybe - I'm just throwing ideas out here - you should listen to what other people who are non-demonstrably mentally ill say about how the world works. Leave the "tough stuff" to them, and instead focus on getting your own brain to work halfway functionally

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48253480)

Of course my perspective is colored by my personality, everyone’s is

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48253489)

Just seems like this would necessarily result in negative and bad outcomes for that person, with literally no hope (actually zero) for anything positive, ever. Sure seems like an odd case that a "rational" person would "rationally" choose to do this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48253513)

ime the only thing that works is getting better at recognizing when it's taking over and consciously fighting back

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48253484)

It's not like a broken arm, or a cold virus, that temporarily disables or renders dysfunctional part of the body, and eventually heals. It's a fundamental defectiveness in how the brain operates in an individual. Like if one's eyes were born blind, or if one's legs were born unable to move. Their brains don't have a 'normal, healthy' state to default back to. They're defective

It's just like schizophrenic homeless people on the street. They don't want to "get better." They don't want to "be normal." That is who they are: fundamentally defective life forms. These people should all be treated accordingly. They will try to force their defectiveness on others if not prevented from doing so

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48253565)

pure internet addiction leading to extreme anxiety tp

maybe I do need to see a behavioral therapist to get out of this digital prison

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48255571)

well I tried that and just got rejected lol

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48255617)

Btw you know you are to blame for multiple gun wielding psychos right

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48255633)

Now go fetch that junkie burglar prince and have him chime in itt too, trash.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48255678)

1) four days ago? this is oddly specific and sex that infrequent is and odd thing to glaot about.

2) no clue why you think i'm aligned with thiel now

3) no clue who the "junkie burglar prince" is

you've demonstrated far more mental illness than consuela ever has with your paranoia about being gangstalked by people along with "outing" dozens of poasters with the most ridiculous schizo guesses. but the worst thing is that you justify it because you get made fun of here, but then rush to attack anyone who admits they have some sort of illness. you're such a hypocrite it just drives me insane.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48255699)

You are sick and have caused great harm in the world and have a lot of work to do once you recover from your whaaa whaaa my schizophrenic evangelist mother phase.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48255729)

"seethe on you pathetic freak" -- all you do is seethe about how your pathetic life gets mocked here, and are too compulsive to get away

"ask your first wife" -- you LITERALLY have a micropenis, spaceporn. why you would admit that and continue to come here is beyond me though. i would think you're some boom shtick if we didn't hear your pathetic castrato voice.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48255754)

I think the moving eye stuff is bullshit, but the process of reopening and rewriting traumatic memories is effective. But you really are rewriting your traumatic memories in a way that allows you to no longer reexperience them each time you have them.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5620244&forum_id=2#48257711)