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Date: September 28th, 2016 4:25 AM Author: Charismatic church mad cow disease
while having sex I bent my penis severely, there was no pain there or nothing, but I noticed a day or so after that my corpus spongious concaved inward, the top neck of it. Nothing was there like it disappeared, then I gave it a while and it seems like it kind of came back. After it being numb for weeks I started to get feeling back to it. But lately and every since this happened it's been hard to get erect, and theres no feeling when I masturbate, very little. Now my corpus spongiosum is very weak and when i do get erect it's a very weak one, I don't know if that was what was stopping me from getting any sensation from masturbation because of the blood flow or what. But now my corpus spongiosum is all messed up, at the top it feels like I can almost move it around like it's not attached to the rest of it, and it still isn't fully back.
So now I get no sexual pleasure, in fact I get very dissatisfied after sex or after I masturbate. I get very annoyed and frustrated and I find it hard to get motivation to do anything after. My stress level is through the roof, and I'm very scared that I'm going to have to drag on for the rest of my life not being able to get this problem fixed. Now I have no active dopamines or serotonin in my brain because this is the only thing that released them for me. I also find things very hard to do now, and it feels like life is very hard and it feels like I can't make it through the day sometimes. I've been to 2 urologists and they just mock me saying that it's impossible for the corpus spongiosum to get weak and to take my mind off of it, anything for them not to deal with it. It's horrible and I have restless legs, I can't find any peace of mind or well-being, I can't enjoy anything now and it's hard for me to stay in one place, it's even hard for me to sleep. Not a day goes by that I don't contemplate killing myself over this. And it sounds so sad an embarassing at the same time but it's true. I need help, and I know you can't do much but provide me with information, but I need some type of diagnosis on what's going on, I can tell you that it happened by me bending it, hands down, I bent it right at the end of the corpus spongiosum, and im not embarassed to say that I would do it on purpose while having sex every time I would exit and enter and kind of bend it going in cause my gf liked it and it felt good to me too. So yes it is upsetting that I knowingly did this to myself but I had no clue that I was going to get a numb penis and ED disorder, not in a million years. And the urologist says the penis cannot be bent, but mine did all the time right at the end of the corpus spongiosum, and one day I kept doing it and that's what messed it up. I can tell you that its the corpus spongiosum and nothing else, its in very poor condition, and even when I do maintain an erection, literally like 30 seconds later it's gone, its very weird and scary.
Like I said, it's at the very top and the bottom where it seems very weak, almost like it's pinched at the bottom, at times it's also very hard for me to pee, and I get these weird nerve feelings in my penis too when it's not erect like a tingle in a vein or something, I just messed it up, very bad, even if my ED was diagnosed I still fear that it will never help me get feeling back. Also when I pee I feel nothing, nothing in my urethra when I pee like it's completely numb, I can feel my bladder peeing it out but i don't feel anything there's no tingle there when peeing or nothing. I know the not getting erection problem is in my corpus, it's not like heart problems or anything, it's been like this every since I pinched it. I'm sorry for writing so much, but please help me with some sort of information on what could have possibly happened to my penis and if it's surgically curable. Thank you for your time.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3367171&forum_id=2#31510857)
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