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Objectively, I've lived a great life. That said, I've been miserable 95-98%

Normal?
dirte
  01/10/19
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donny (retired)
  01/10/19
What is making you miserable?
Guy Debord
  01/10/19
I have no idea. I've had suicidal ideations on a daily basis...
dirte
  01/10/19
think of the kids
'"''''"''""
  01/10/19
Probably the only thing keeping me going. I've never actuall...
dirte
  01/10/19
wtf man
donny (retired)
  01/10/19
You don't do this?
dirte
  01/10/19
try replacing your gut bacteria
donny (retired)
  01/10/19
...
Woah Cr friend!
  01/10/19
gut biome is the new frontier
Low IQ Idiot
  01/10/19
Forgive my ignorance of depression, but is it tied to anythi...
Guy Debord
  01/10/19
General malaise. When I get like this, I really have to forc...
dirte
  01/10/19
Xo is a depressing place, fosters more of it. If you are dep...
'"''''"''""
  01/10/19
I am the same and it was really bad when I was in northern l...
Gurgling Retard
  01/11/19
its your enviro, dirte. Go to Hawaii more. also get a sunl...
Gurgling Retard
  01/11/19
I have the same issue (but my life is objectively an agonizi...
Wilbur Mercer, the supreme gentleman
  01/11/19
it's genetic unfortunately when your kids come of age you...
GOY SUPERSTAR
  01/10/19
this is 95% of poasters, but without the objectively great l...
,.,,..,,.,.,..:,,:,...,:::,.,.,:,.,.:.,:.,:.,:,
  01/10/19
Normal for us, brother. If you have kids, THOT Ravager i...
[- -]
  01/10/19
what makes your life objectively great?
Venkatesh Subramanian's favorite alt
  01/10/19
Grew up with loving parents, had moderate athletic success, ...
dirte
  01/10/19
it's almost like there is nothing at all objective about it.
Oh, you travel?
  01/10/19
Subjectively, I've lived a great life.
dirte
  01/10/19
seems like you just went through the motions of what you tho...
Venkatesh Subramanian's favorite alt
  01/10/19
lol u mean you date fat women "way above weight class&q...
...,,,.,..,.,,..,,,.,,,..,,,,...,,.
  01/10/19
LJL I've banged out plenty of 8-9's in my day friend. I'm...
dirte
  01/10/19
was your ex wife an 8 or 9
...,,,.,..,.,,..,,,.,,,..,,,,...,,.
  01/10/19
Nah. 6-7 at marriage 4 after kids
dirte
  01/10/19
Have you tried any antidepressants?
IronMonkey
  01/10/19
I've tried them all. I don't like having limp dick or loss o...
dirte
  01/10/19
What about those full-spectrum lights for SAD?
IronMonkey
  01/10/19
(Fraud doctor)
donny (retired)
  01/10/19
counter-intuitive, because I long to live in AK, but do you ...
Sticky, and still cleaning up the mess!
  01/10/19
I think it's the darkness. I always get pretty depressed in ...
dirte
  01/10/19
get a SAD light
Low IQ Idiot
  01/10/19
tcr. Have mine on right now.
ESL TM..,..;;.
  01/10/19
whats youre ethnic roots? more convinced that people need...
Sticky, and still cleaning up the mess!
  01/10/19
I'm a ginger
dirte
  01/10/19
Take 10,000 IU vitamin D per day with a meal
Woah Cr friend!
  01/10/19
...
donny (retired)
  01/10/19
AK seems incredibly depressing, but maybe that's because I h...
ESL TM..,..;;.
  01/10/19
Summer is amazing. Never dark, I have tons of fun, and still...
dirte
  01/10/19
Maybe, but I thought summer was short in Moscow and MN, so I...
ESL TM..,..;;.
  01/10/19
"I've had suicidal ideations on a daily basis for over ...
ESL TM..,..;;.
  01/10/19
It happens so often that I'm completely numb to it. It's ba...
dirte
  01/10/19
I basically never contemplate suicide. Shit has to be reall...
ESL TM..,..;;.
  01/10/19
I'm not sure you're on the right forum
dirte
  01/10/19
lulz, fair point
ESL TM..,..;;.
  01/10/19
...
Mad Libs
  01/10/19
It could be worse. You could be practicing law instead of be...
cannon
  01/10/19
tcr
Pernell Whitaker
  01/10/19
Same here. I have accomplished shit 99.999999% of the world ...
Pernell Whitaker
  01/10/19
Race?
'"''''"''""
  01/10/19
Quadroon
Pernell Whitaker
  01/11/19
you need god
'''''''
  01/10/19
and the funny thing is you could've enjoyed 100% of it if yo...
'"'""'"''""
  01/10/19
Divorced man standing 5 ft deep in salmon guts contemplating...
End Road Work
  01/11/19
That actually would be a pretty sweet day, TBH
dirte
  01/11/19


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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:43 PM
Author: dirte

Normal?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566574)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:44 PM
Author: donny (retired) (donny)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566578)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:45 PM
Author: Guy Debord

What is making you miserable?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566588)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:46 PM
Author: dirte

I have no idea. I've had suicidal ideations on a daily basis for over 30 years.

I probably need to find God or some sort of spiritual enlightenment.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566599)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:48 PM
Author: '"''''"''""


think of the kids

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566613)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:50 PM
Author: dirte

Probably the only thing keeping me going. I've never actually attempted suicide. But, at some point every single day, I ponder different methods to killself. Then, I think of my family and kids and say to myself... fuck, I'll just plod on for another fucking day.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566634)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:50 PM
Author: donny (retired) (donny)

wtf man

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566644)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:51 PM
Author: dirte

You don't do this?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566649)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:51 PM
Author: donny (retired) (donny)

try replacing your gut bacteria

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566648)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:21 PM
Author: Woah Cr friend! (🦖)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567292)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:42 PM
Author: Low IQ Idiot

gut biome is the new frontier

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567469)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:53 PM
Author: Guy Debord

Forgive my ignorance of depression, but is it tied to anything? Like, "Jesus, I can't believe I am __ years old and have not accomplished ______." Or is it just a general malaise and depression.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566673)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:57 PM
Author: dirte

General malaise. When I get like this, I really have to force myself to do just about anything. I'm about to go ride my fat bike and get my heart racing. When I get like this, the last thing I want to do is exercise, but it's really the only thing that can get me out of a funk.

Wasting time on XO only exacerbates the problem.

If I get about 30 minutes of moderate cardio, I'll be good for a couple days.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566706)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 10:41 PM
Author: '"''''"''""


Xo is a depressing place, fosters more of it. If you are depressed, get out of here.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37570503)



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Date: January 11th, 2019 9:49 AM
Author: Gurgling Retard

I am the same and it was really bad when I was in northern latitudes. just cop that exercise.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37572231)



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Date: January 11th, 2019 9:48 AM
Author: Gurgling Retard

its your enviro, dirte. Go to Hawaii more. also get a sunlamp

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37572229)



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Date: January 11th, 2019 9:50 AM
Author: Wilbur Mercer, the supreme gentleman (Crypto Musk Ox)

I have the same issue (but my life is objectively an agonizing waste/failure)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37572236)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:47 PM
Author: GOY SUPERSTAR

it's genetic unfortunately

when your kids come of age you should make sure to talk to them about it at some point when they're ready because they will end up with it too

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566611)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:48 PM
Author: ,.,,..,,.,.,..:,,:,...,:::,.,.,:,.,.:.,:.,:.,:,


this is 95% of poasters, but without the objectively great life part

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566622)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:49 PM
Author: [- -]

Normal for us, brother.

If you have kids, THOT Ravager is right.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566629)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:51 PM
Author: Venkatesh Subramanian's favorite alt

what makes your life objectively great?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566651)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:55 PM
Author: dirte

Grew up with loving parents, had moderate athletic success, I've punched way above my weight class with women my entire life, I've traveled the world, have a great job with lots of time off, beautiful healthy children, etc., etc.

Not sure what metric best determines "great life".

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566686)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:59 PM
Author: Oh, you travel?

it's almost like there is nothing at all objective about it.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566725)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:01 PM
Author: dirte

Subjectively, I've lived a great life.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566747)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:05 PM
Author: Venkatesh Subramanian's favorite alt

seems like you just went through the motions of what you thought was a "great life" instead of discovering the unique things you wanted to do/explore before you got locked down into your great life.

solution: wait til children go to college. find a 2nd calling.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566789)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:00 PM
Author: ...,,,.,..,.,,..,,,.,,,..,,,,...,,.


lol u mean you date fat women "way above weight class"

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566733)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:02 PM
Author: dirte

LJL

I've banged out plenty of 8-9's in my day friend. I'm old af and will take what I can get these days.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566761)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:08 PM
Author: ...,,,.,..,.,,..,,,.,,,..,,,,...,,.


was your ex wife an 8 or 9

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566820)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:20 PM
Author: dirte

Nah. 6-7 at marriage 4 after kids

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567288)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:54 PM
Author: IronMonkey

Have you tried any antidepressants?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566682)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 1:58 PM
Author: dirte

I've tried them all. I don't like having limp dick or loss of sexual appetite.

Exercise works better than any drug. But, it's 6 degrees outside and I don't feel like doing anything.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566720)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:00 PM
Author: IronMonkey

What about those full-spectrum lights for SAD?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566737)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:33 PM
Author: donny (retired) (donny)

(Fraud doctor)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567403)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:01 PM
Author: Sticky, and still cleaning up the mess!

counter-intuitive, because I long to live in AK, but do you think being up there is a problem? Little sunlight, feel far from everyone, survival is a battle? Almost like non-eskimos arent evolved to live there?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566745)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:03 PM
Author: dirte

I think it's the darkness. I always get pretty depressed in January and February and want to move. Then March comes and I'm perfectly fine living here. I love April through October in Alaska.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566777)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:06 PM
Author: Low IQ Idiot

get a SAD light

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566798)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:27 PM
Author: ESL TM..,..;;. (🦈)

tcr. Have mine on right now.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567346)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 2:08 PM
Author: Sticky, and still cleaning up the mess!

whats youre ethnic roots?

more convinced that people need to live where their ancestors lived, or in similar climes. Nothing makes this Mick happier than a cloudy day

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37566815)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:19 PM
Author: dirte

I'm a ginger

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567280)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:22 PM
Author: Woah Cr friend! (🦖)

Take 10,000 IU vitamin D per day with a meal

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567308)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:33 PM
Author: donny (retired) (donny)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567400)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:25 PM
Author: ESL TM..,..;;. (🦈)

AK seems incredibly depressing, but maybe that's because I have SAD and hate winter.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567328)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:32 PM
Author: dirte

Summer is amazing. Never dark, I have tons of fun, and still have ideations

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567393)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:40 PM
Author: ESL TM..,..;;. (🦈)

Maybe, but I thought summer was short in Moscow and MN, so I can't imagine for AK.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567444)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:23 PM
Author: ESL TM..,..;;. (🦈)

"I've had suicidal ideations on a daily basis for over 30 years."

Nope, not normal.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567314)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:26 PM
Author: dirte

It happens so often that I'm completely numb to it. It's basically a 5-10 minute daily funk.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567343)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:39 PM
Author: ESL TM..,..;;. (🦈)

I basically never contemplate suicide. Shit has to be really bad for that to pop into my head. I can't imagine thinking this daily even for a few seconds, let alone 5-10 minutes of actual "I should probably kill myself.

I want to die." To me that implies serious, hardcore depression.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567438)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 4:17 PM
Author: dirte

I'm not sure you're on the right forum

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567765)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 4:21 PM
Author: ESL TM..,..;;. (🦈)

lulz, fair point

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567803)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:36 PM
Author: Mad Libs (🍯🍆)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567412)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 3:23 PM
Author: cannon

It could be worse. You could be practicing law instead of being in the oilfield.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567316)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 4:22 PM
Author: Pernell Whitaker

tcr

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567819)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 4:21 PM
Author: Pernell Whitaker

Same here. I have accomplished shit 99.999999% of the world can only dream of and yet every day I wish I never existed and I am completely bored in life and see no point to anything anymore.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37567815)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 10:43 PM
Author: '"''''"''""


Race?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37570520)



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Date: January 11th, 2019 8:55 AM
Author: Pernell Whitaker

Quadroon

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37572037)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 10:42 PM
Author: '''''''

you need god

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37570514)



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Date: January 10th, 2019 10:48 PM
Author: '"'""'"''""


and the funny thing is you could've enjoyed 100% of it if you had just taken regular fish oil/magnesium supplements. sad!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37570556)



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Date: January 11th, 2019 1:19 PM
Author: End Road Work

Divorced man standing 5 ft deep in salmon guts contemplating his life

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37573677)



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Date: January 11th, 2019 2:14 PM
Author: dirte

That actually would be a pretty sweet day, TBH

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4174685&forum_id=2#37574052)