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Killing self soon (1-2 weeks) taking suggestions on s.note, ordering affairs etc

worried I'm going to forget something important and only rea...
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  07/05/19
Will prepared?
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  07/05/19
yes, holographic will (admissible to probate in my state)
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  07/05/19
so youre gonna come out like 2pac at coachella? 180
sun kil moon
  07/05/19
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faggy retard (retired)
  07/05/19
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  07/05/19
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  07/05/19
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starbucks barista
  07/05/19
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luke screenwatcher
  07/06/19
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Midsommar? Ponderous, Aggravating
  07/06/19
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Wilbur Mercer, the supreme gentleman
  07/10/19
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Mad Libs
  07/11/19
i don't believe suicide is possible, considering the multive...
JFC
  07/05/19
?? planning on doing it in a way that should not cause a...
'''''''"'"
  07/05/19
you've been warned
JFC
  07/05/19
this is the cr risk
sun kil moon
  07/05/19
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faggy retard (retired)
  07/05/19
Wait
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Walrus
  07/05/19
Why killing your self
GAY GOY
  07/05/19
sequence of seemingly unending life failures, ultimately cu...
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  07/05/19
False
honk honk
  07/05/19
statistics show your loved ones will be way way way more lik...
GAY GOY
  07/05/19
my parents are (relative) oldmos that have been coping with ...
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  07/05/19
Dont do it man. It will devastate your parents in their old ...
...:........;;.........,;:..........:.;....:::....
  07/05/19
it will be hard on them I know but ultimately, I think, bett...
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  07/05/19
Well, you are most definitely wrong. Selfish act. Get some h...
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  07/05/19
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ok this is epic
  07/05/19
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Taylor Swift is not a hobby she is a lifestyle
  07/05/19
Could be. Way I see it I’m taking a risk either way. J...
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ESL TM..,..;;.
  07/06/19
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GOY GUN NUT
  07/06/19
Sadly, your family will be worse off if you die, so there re...
Muscadine wine
  07/09/19
Suicide is 180 and extremely rational
clippers
  07/05/19
ty
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  07/05/19
don't do it bro, let's talk about this
donny (retired)
  07/05/19
nothing to talk about at this point, thus focusing on orderi...
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  07/05/19
Previous monikers?
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  07/05/19
a few. none achieving "regular" status or likely t...
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  07/05/19
I'm always curious when people make these threads so I'll as...
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  07/05/19
total professional/career failure. have lost all friends ove...
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  07/05/19
Chronic depression/ mental illness can be cured by red meat ...
GAY GOY
  07/05/19
how long does it take? I doubt I can afford it or that i...
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  07/05/19
Should feel a difference pretty quick 116 mental health a...
GAY GOY
  07/05/19
skimmed briefly but think I'm gonna pass
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  07/05/19
Physical health?
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  07/05/19
last time seeing a doctor of any kind was probably two years...
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  07/05/19
You should literally not care about any of this. Career succ...
luis (retired)
  07/05/19
unfortunately, whether I *should* care about any of it is ir...
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  07/05/19
Yea man, it’s all flame...yoga/sober living can help t...
luis (retired)
  07/05/19
How old are you? It’s a tough thing psychologically...
Barack Carcetti
  07/06/19
“Only optimists commit suicide, optimists who no longe...
Oh, you travel?
  07/05/19
eh? seems to be swinging for the profundity fence but missin...
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  07/05/19
Idk just thought it would be relevant to OP
Oh, you travel?
  07/05/19
This is the cr take on life
luis (retired)
  07/05/19
if this isn't flame, we love you, brother, and want you to s...
TRUMP rulez
  07/05/19
ty
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  07/05/19
seriously, man.
TRUMP rulez
  07/05/19
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sun kil moon
  07/05/19
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Holding Back The Years
  07/05/19
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scabs
  07/05/19
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Midsommar? Ponderous, Aggravating
  07/06/19
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identifyasrippedchadd00d
  07/06/19
Lies I don’t even know this guy!
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  07/06/19
As a person who said suicide is 180 in this thread if you ca...
clippers
  07/05/19
I don't think I can get 'a bunch' of Xanax in a short time, ...
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  07/05/19
You can get 20 to try it out, just go to a doc and say you g...
clippers
  07/05/19
etizolam bro. $80 per gram and its even better than xanax
The Natural Living Man
  07/06/19
link to purchase?
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  07/06/19
I bought a gram on the darkweb a few months ago and still ha...
The Natural Living Man
  07/06/19
I mean, if I buy any of this powdered benzo shit it'll lik...
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  07/06/19
you can't really overdose on benzos
The Natural Living Man
  07/06/19
*leans into mic*
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  07/06/19
right??
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  07/06/19
don't do this
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  07/06/19
Why not join a monastery and study ancient literature all da...
ok this is epic
  07/05/19
I never really understand these off-the-wall "suggestio...
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  07/05/19
Obviously it doesn’t have to be that specifically. Rea...
ok this is epic
  07/05/19
I understand what you are saying at some intellectual level ...
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  07/05/19
describe your career failures. mine are horrible too bro. it...
greek salad
  07/05/19
You will maek it
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-edited-
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  07/05/19
i read before your edit. sorry bro. that's very rough and li...
greek salad
  07/05/19
Ty. Tbf I don’t mean to externalize all my problems bl...
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  07/05/19
Have you ever had a high dosage LSD or Mushroom trip? Those ...
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  07/05/19
I've heard that ECT can "reset" your brain to some...
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  07/06/19
Search on google scholar for psychedelics and depression. DM...
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  07/06/19
are the psychoactive chemicals in LSD, shrooms, and DMT all ...
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  07/06/19
They are all 5-ht2a agonists with different binding affiniti...
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  07/06/19
Poast your note to XO or you’re flame
Rachmiel Amadeus (retired)
  07/05/19
?
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  07/05/19
I haven’t written my note yet as indicated in thread t...
'''''''"'"
  07/05/19
You're going to be dead soon anyway faggot. If you hate life...
GAS GAS GAS
  07/05/19
Brother, please don't.
Thud Butt
  07/05/19
? there will still be shitcoins that'll 10x
benzo xx
  07/05/19
...
Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)
  07/05/19
Being a bartender sounds 180
ok this is epic
  07/05/19
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Hungry, forkless and losing patience.
  07/06/19
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Holding Back The Years
  07/05/19
Ty for the kind sentiments and gl
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  07/05/19
Np. I could go on about mindfulness, meditation, Jordan Pete...
Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)
  07/05/19
I have no doubt that some of those things *can* be helpful. ...
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  07/06/19
...
Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)
  07/06/19
I have always found kind of hollow the argument that there ...
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  07/06/19
Thank you. And I mean that. Xomormondude@yahoo.com. Pleas...
Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)
  07/06/19
ok. I copied your address into my throwaway/xo email so you...
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  07/06/19
I could care less about agent Jenkins or dooBs. This is more...
Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)
  07/06/19
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YhxjNYvJbgM
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St. Bagelcel
  07/06/19
wld love to in theory but I feel like a murder/suicide exit ...
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https://youtu.be/kLWvu51Vk4E?t=128
Waveracewar 64
  07/06/19
...
St. Bagelcel
  07/06/19
Why would you plant this idea? OP needs help, not some onlin...
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St. Bagelcel
  07/06/19
same
faggy retard (retired)
  07/06/19
srs?
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
not next week but eventually sure
faggy retard (retired)
  07/06/19
How tall are you?
Absolutely No Couth in SF
  07/06/19
5'11
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  07/06/19
Thread makes more sense now.
Absolutely No Couth in SF
  07/07/19
So many things you could do with the mindset of idgaf. W...
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  07/06/19
Take out life insurance with a one year suicide exclusion. ...
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  07/06/19
I have done this and am outside the contest period for my po...
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
Age?
Holding Back The Years
  07/06/19
36
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
Might as well then good luck in the next plane, brother.
shalimarseiuliscreenwatchers.gov
  07/06/19
ty
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  07/06/19
36 is young brother. Endure. Take control of what you can...
Holding Back The Years
  07/06/19
Why not just move to a cool place and bang sluts all day? Yo...
Windsor Canadian
  07/06/19
I feel that I have addressed the same line of argument in th...
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  07/06/19
I actually disagree with the view that suicide is **always**...
Jeremy G. Smart
  07/06/19
ironically, I actually enjoy(ed) lawmo'ing quite a bit I...
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  07/06/19
Well either that or it's the reason why someone who otherwis...
Jeremy G. Smart
  07/06/19
ok I'll try and think of some "just do x/y/z" thin...
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  07/06/19
Sup LeBron
sun kil moon
  07/06/19
lol
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
...
GREAT WHITE CHAD
  07/06/19
🤣
GOY GUN NUT
  07/06/19
currently listening to Don't Fear The Reaper on repeat
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
just dealt with some sudden and intense fits of rage and ang...
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
almost smashed up laptop in fit of rage. would not have been...
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
what triggered your rage mode?
GOY GUN NUT
  07/06/19
just intensely thinking about the extent to which my life ha...
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
Try to cop ECT first
Midsommar? Ponderous, Aggravating
  07/06/19
that ship has sailed, no legitimate doctor would even dream ...
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
? Maybe you should try those less drastic protocols then...
luis (retired)
  07/06/19
unable
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
Your system is just rejecting modern life, which is actually...
Sticky, and still cleaning up the mess!
  07/06/19
...
boomerboat
  07/12/19
exactly how much cash do you have on hand? if you have enoug...
'""'''""'
  07/06/19
id like to know this too arecountrypumo at gmail if you e...
acp
  07/06/19
idk I'd estimate I'm at ~ $10-12,000 cash on hand. which, fo...
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
planning on doing this when my $$$ runs out which has been u...
I said RESEMBLE monkeys
  07/06/19
explain what the deal is with a "coach" gun and wh...
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
double barreled so you can shoot both rounds at once the guy...
I said RESEMBLE monkeys
  07/10/19
exit bag bro
The Natural Living Man
  07/12/19
Method of killself?
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  07/06/19
MF box cutter to the carotid artery. a clean, direct fuckin...
'''''''"'"
  07/06/19
Really dumb low ROI method Exit bag or hanging or train
GREAT WHITE CHAD
  07/07/19
whoa don't look now folks we got a MFE here on xo and he has...
'''''''"'"
  07/07/19
Unless you are in extreme physical suffering this is never a...
teddy tortellini
  07/06/19
don't
there's a wocket in my pocket
  07/06/19
Can you put add’l details about your career issues? I&...
Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy
  07/07/19
I posted some earlier but edited as the details were specifi...
'''''''"'"
  07/07/19
Gotcha. Don’t necessarily disagree with your assessmen...
Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy
  07/09/19
all of life is l'appel du vide
'''''''"'"
  07/09/19
Agree, but I am telling you it’s woth blasting into th...
Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy
  07/09/19
ty I will look into acquiring
'''''''"'"
  07/09/19
music festivals or any local jammy band event are good.
Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy
  07/09/19
Well you are a good writer
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  07/09/19
...
Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy
  07/09/19
have you read Ayn Rand, friend?
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  07/07/19
I read Anthem in junior high and The Fountainhead in HS
'''''''"'"
  07/08/19
maybe try blasting through Atlas Shrugged on audiobook befor...
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  07/09/19
purchased materials to carry this out today and began compos...
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  07/09/19
Rate me as a poaster
Woah Cr friend!
  07/09/19
178
'''''''"'"
  07/09/19
bullshit hes 180
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  07/09/19
Poast each note so we can advise on best one to leave. Tyia
Lewis Powell
  07/09/19
won't be doing this
'''''''"'"
  07/09/19
what did you buy?
greek salad
  07/09/19
purchased variety of box cutters and similar razor blades ...
'''''''"'"
  07/09/19
don't do this bro
greek salad
  07/09/19
Why do you have a prescription for blood thinners?
cannon
  07/10/19
family member's script but in my state I can pick up "f...
'''''''"'"
  07/11/19
please don't dude. You can seriously change what your brain ...
donny (retired)
  07/09/19
plz don't killself :( the vast majority of people who try...
exeunt
  07/09/19
Post pics of materials or flame
GOY GUN NUT
  07/11/19
took my iPhone to get screen replaced will post pics tomorro...
'''''''"'"
  07/11/19
Lold at the thought of a a guy who is about to kill himself ...
luke screenwatcher
  07/11/19
getting it and a large crack in my iPad repaired also. I'm...
'''''''"'"
  07/12/19
wtf
Metal Up Your Ass
  07/11/19
I just went with stuff like this. everything I read said tha...
'''''''"'"
  07/12/19
Why did you buy extra blades?
GOY GUN NUT
  07/12/19
it only comes with one off the shelf and you run the risk yo...
'''''''"'"
  07/12/19
race?
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  07/09/19
white
'''''''"'"
  07/09/19
lol u really need to ask?
AZNgirl ordering all NOWAGS back to their country
  07/11/19
Suicide is the ultimate act of conformity Why not rebel ...
Woah Cr friend!
  07/09/19
I like you a lot as a poaster but I have no idea what this m...
'''''''"'"
  07/09/19
In society you are trapped within a system of implicit rules...
Woah Cr friend!
  07/09/19
...
Holding Back The Years
  07/10/19
...
ok this is epic
  07/11/19
ive been there brother. im not going to give you any advice ...
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  07/09/19
i said im not going to give you advice, but i'm going to giv...
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  07/09/19
Don't off yourself bro and go out like another whispering st...
Big Guy For You
  07/09/19
Dick size and height?
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  07/09/19
height answered elsewhere ITT dick size apps 6.5"
'''''''"'"
  07/10/19
How many simpsons references in the suicide note?
Lewis Powell
  07/10/19
probably none but classic Simpsons is 180
'''''''"'"
  07/10/19
thinking of texting this girl I randomly hooked up with last...
'''''''"'"
  07/10/19
What happened to your career dude?
SomeOtherGhost
  07/10/19
gone
'''''''"'"
  07/12/19
In what fashion?
SomeOtherGhost
  07/12/19
French exit
'''''''"'"
  07/12/19
Do it already
GREAT WHITE CHAD
  07/11/19
...
GREAT WHITE CHAD
  07/12/19
working on it
'''''''"'"
  07/12/19
don't do it...this will all blow over
HONKLER THE CLOWN
  07/11/19
quit being so histrionic
histrionic bitchmade lawyerfaggot
  07/11/19
You're a good writer and this was top shelf flame.
cannon
  07/12/19
hold the door
Vice.com
  07/12/19
Don’t do it man. I can pretty much 100% guarantee t...
Refunkulus
  07/12/19
ironically I haven't had a drop of alcohol in over a month ...
'''''''"'"
  07/12/19
Will there be an autopsy or inquest? What determines this?
'''''''"'"
  07/12/19
You're a good dood, man.
histrionic bitchmade lawyerfaggot
  07/16/19
suicide notes written. for the most part anyway, I have to d...
'''''''"'"
  07/15/19
Prove it
Woah Cr friend!
  07/15/19
I'm not poasting my suicide notes to my family/LT ex gf and ...
'''''''"'"
  07/15/19
Poast pics of the box cutters next to the benzos.
,.,.,.,.,.,,.,.,.,.,..,.,
  07/15/19
bye federer, ur wifes gonna be even more cow like now lmao
tats
  07/15/19
doing it now, bye xo. thanks to the people who reached out I...
'''''''"'"
  07/16/19
Don't forget to change monikers when you come back next week...
,..,...,,,.,.;.,.,..,,.,.,.;.,..,.,.,;,.,.:,.,.,.,
  07/16/19
JFC, dude. Don't do this. So, your career is trashed at th...
histrionic bitchmade lawyerfaggot
  07/16/19
hopefully this is flame. but if not, godspeed and RIP.
Sen. Bernard Sanders
  07/16/19
...
GREAT WHITE CHAD
  07/17/19
Just circling back. Where are we on this?
cannon
  07/17/19
Very morbid thread
Rep. Ilhan Turdbar
  07/16/19
...
Woah Cr friend!
  07/16/19
Happens to the best of us
Vice.com
  07/17/19
...
greek salad
  07/17/19


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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:28 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

worried I'm going to forget something important and only realize as mortal coil is slipping away. that would suck.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488846)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:31 PM
Author: """"'''""'


Will prepared?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488860)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:35 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

yes, holographic will (admissible to probate in my state)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488876)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:57 PM
Author: sun kil moon (ggtp)

so youre gonna come out like 2pac at coachella? 180

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488981)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:58 PM
Author: faggy retard (retired) ()



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488986)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:00 PM
Author: '''''''"'"



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489001)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:02 PM
Author: """"'''""'




(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489012)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:19 PM
Author: starbucks barista



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489076)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 3:46 AM
Author: luke screenwatcher (luis)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490136)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:39 AM
Author: Midsommar? Ponderous, Aggravating



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490264)



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Date: July 10th, 2019 12:54 AM
Author: Wilbur Mercer, the supreme gentleman (Crypto Musk Ox)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508575)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 2:48 AM
Author: Mad Libs



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513675)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:32 PM
Author: JFC (lawman8)

i don't believe suicide is possible, considering the multiverse. you'll just wake up horribly maimed

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488867)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:36 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

??

planning on doing it in a way that should not cause any particular maiming or disfigurement if survived

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488879)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:38 PM
Author: JFC (lawman8)

you've been warned

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488888)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:57 PM
Author: sun kil moon (ggtp)

this is the cr risk

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488983)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:58 PM
Author: faggy retard (retired) ()



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488988)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:38 PM
Author: ...:........;;.........,;:..........:.;....:::....


Wait

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488891)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:39 PM
Author: Walrus



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489183)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:39 PM
Author: GAY GOY

Why killing your self

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488897)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:44 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

sequence of seemingly unending life failures, ultimately culminating in sense of utter hopelessness and realization that, though intensely painful, loved ones will ultimately be better off with some definite and finite terminus, rather than being forced participants in my misery cycle

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488917)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:44 PM
Author: honk honk

False

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488923)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:45 PM
Author: GAY GOY

statistics show your loved ones will be way way way more likely to kill them selves if you kill yourself

Call a suicide hotline bro

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488925)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:55 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

my parents are (relative) oldmos that have been coping with the knowledge that (I believe) my life to be in crisis and killself a realistic potential outcome. I don't think either of them will killself and I am not particularly close with my brother don't see it affecting him that profoundly

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488969)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:59 PM
Author: ...:........;;.........,;:..........:.;....:::....


Dont do it man. It will devastate your parents in their old age. Get help, weve all been down before.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488993)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:12 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

it will be hard on them I know but ultimately, I think, better.

my mom has told me that she has mentally tried to cope with the knowledge that she cannot prevent or control whether I live or die and her awareness that I have, for some time, been thinking about killself.

I believe that even severe grief states adapt and reach some homeostatic balance over time. I believe that for my parents, ultimately, the grief of a world in which I killself will be less than a world in which I do not. obv I cannot know this for certain. I acknowledge it is a calculated risk.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489049)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:53 PM
Author: ,.,...,..,.,.,:,,:,.,.,:::,..,..,:,.,.:.:.,:.::,.


Well, you are most definitely wrong. Selfish act. Get some help

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489265)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:57 PM
Author: ok this is epic



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489295)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:18 PM
Author: Taylor Swift is not a hobby she is a lifestyle



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489431)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:39 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

Could be. Way I see it I’m taking a risk either way. Just gotta hope for the best.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489547)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:52 AM
Author: ESL TM..,..;;. (🦈)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489753)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 4:29 AM
Author: GOY GUN NUT



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490155)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:25 PM
Author: Muscadine wine

Sadly, your family will be worse off if you die, so there really isn't any escape. Have you tried drinking?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507742)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:44 PM
Author: clippers

Suicide is 180 and extremely rational

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488919)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:55 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

ty

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488971)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 9:56 PM
Author: donny (retired) (donny)

don't do it bro, let's talk about this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38488975)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:04 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

nothing to talk about at this point, thus focusing on ordering affairs and trying my best to explain reasoning in note

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489020)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:00 PM
Author: '''''"""

Previous monikers?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489000)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:02 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

a few. none achieving "regular" status or likely to be recognized by most posters.

account used to be an alt for a different poaster who let me have it when registration was closed for months and years. don't think it was notable under him either tho

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489013)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:04 PM
Author: '''''"""

I'm always curious when people make these threads so I'll ask - if you can summarize the specific conditions or reasons that lead you here, what are they?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489016)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:07 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

total professional/career failure. have lost all friends over the past 3-4 years. am aware that my deteriorating situation combined with underlying chronic depression/mental illness takes an emotional and financial toll on my parents, who are retiring this year. no longer wish to be a burden.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489034)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:13 PM
Author: GAY GOY

Chronic depression/ mental illness can be cured by red meat only diet not flame:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/diagnosis-diet/201906/8-reasons-try-low-carb-mental-health

Meatheals.com

https://mobile.twitter.com/Mangan150/status/1146922953163980800

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489051)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:17 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

how long does it take?

I doubt I can afford it or that it would work quickly enough so I'm probably going to stick w my plan

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489064)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:18 PM
Author: GAY GOY

Should feel a difference pretty quick

116 mental health anecdotes here read some:

http://meatheals.com/category/mood-mental-health/

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489070)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:32 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

skimmed briefly but think I'm gonna pass

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489140)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:18 PM
Author: '''''"""

Physical health?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489071)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:29 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

last time seeing a doctor of any kind was probably two years ago. but as of then, perfect physical health. 123/81 bp, 68 bpm hr, ~10% bf

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489125)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:23 PM
Author: luis (retired)

You should literally not care about any of this. Career success and friends are overrated anyway. Just stick it out for the day-to-day lulz and to see what happens with crypto

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489093)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:30 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

unfortunately, whether I *should* care about any of it is irrelevant and being told that, by you or myself or anyone, seems unlikely to change the fact that I do care about the state of my life

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489137)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:02 PM
Author: luis (retired)

Yea man, it’s all flame...yoga/sober living can help though if you’re interested in action steps

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489329)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:03 AM
Author: Barack Carcetti

How old are you?

It’s a tough thing psychologically when you realize the person you’re going to grow up to be is different than the person you were hoping to be.

You should give that new person you’re going to be a chance though, that person has a lot more possibilities than you probably appreciate right now.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490231)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:02 PM
Author: Oh, you travel?

“Only optimists commit suicide, optimists who no longer succeed at being optimists. The others, having no reason to live, why would they have any to die?”

― Emil Cioran

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489009)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:03 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

eh? seems to be swinging for the profundity fence but missing quite badly

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489014)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:04 PM
Author: Oh, you travel?

Idk just thought it would be relevant to OP

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489022)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:13 PM
Author: luis (retired)

This is the cr take on life

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489401)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:06 PM
Author: TRUMP rulez

if this isn't flame, we love you, brother, and want you to stay -- even if not on this forum, in real life.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489030)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:17 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

ty

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489067)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:33 PM
Author: TRUMP rulez

seriously, man.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489143)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:43 PM
Author: sun kil moon (ggtp)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489204)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:55 PM
Author: ,.,...,..,.,.,:,,:,.,.,:::,..,..,:,.,.:.:.,:.::,.




(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489281)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:33 PM
Author: Holding Back The Years



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489505)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:51 PM
Author: scabs



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489575)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:39 AM
Author: Midsommar? Ponderous, Aggravating



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490265)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:43 AM
Author: identifyasrippedchadd00d



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490275)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:43 PM
Author: """"'''""'


Lies

I don’t even know this guy!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492488)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:26 PM
Author: clippers

As a person who said suicide is 180 in this thread if you can get a bunch of Xanax and stay on it daily life is 180

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489105)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:33 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

I don't think I can get 'a bunch' of Xanax in a short time, but I will keep your suggestion in mind

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489144)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:40 PM
Author: clippers

You can get 20 to try it out, just go to a doc and say you get extreme panic attacks that last very shortly.

Being on Xanax makes life perfectly content.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489189)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:17 AM
Author: The Natural Living Man

etizolam bro. $80 per gram and its even better than xanax

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489823)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:33 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

link to purchase?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489867)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 4:31 AM
Author: The Natural Living Man

I bought a gram on the darkweb a few months ago and still have a shitload left. Several years ago I bought U-47700 from LS Research Chems and it was excellent, so imagine that I'll use them guys again when the time comes to buy more benzo analogues. Be careful if you decide to pick up some of the mroe exotic 'zolams; nitrazolam and clonazolam in particula tend to cause blackouts much more readily than a lot of the others.

https://www.lsresearchchems.com/c/benzodiazepine-derivatives_0399

If you go the powder route you'll need to learn to volumetrically dose, but it's definitely the most cost effective method. The etizolam equivalent to around 500 xanax bars is like $110.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490158)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 5:09 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

I mean, if I buy any of this powdered benzo shit it'll likely be because they seem like a painless and relatively fool proof way of accomplishing the goal stated in OP.

but yeah, volumetric dosing, 10-4 good buddy.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490174)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 6:21 PM
Author: The Natural Living Man

you can't really overdose on benzos

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492184)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:14 PM
Author: .,,.,.,.,.,...,.,..

*leans into mic*

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492390)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:27 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

right??

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492426)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:14 PM
Author: .,,.,.,.,.,...,.,..

don't do this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492391)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:33 PM
Author: ok this is epic

Why not join a monastery and study ancient literature all day? You don’t really want to kill yourself man that would bring immeasurable harm to your parents psyche

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489141)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:38 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

I never really understand these off-the-wall "suggestions" that come out in killself threading, like "just do move to some island far away" or "just do big monastery, bro"

I have an acquaintance friend-of-a-friend who did join a monastery and they seemed to vet his mental commitment to and planning for a monastic lifestyle pretty heavily, so I have a hard time thinking I even *could* join.

regardless, I have never had any desire to join a monastery and study ancient literature all day, so the fact that this is, at some abstract level, an "alternative" to my suiciding doesn't seem that relevant.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489174)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:41 PM
Author: ok this is epic

Obviously it doesn’t have to be that specifically. Really any decision you could make would be better than what you are planning

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489192)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:01 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

I understand what you are saying at some intellectual level but at an IRL level it seems like mere question begging. most people are against suicide and do take your view that [any decision] > suicide.

suicidal people are the exception to this rule, or at least they think that they are to the extent they are actually contemplating suicide. saying "just do monk life" or "just do [alternative]" seems to me not much different than saying "just do be mentally healthy no longer desiring of killself"

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489323)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:48 PM
Author: greek salad

describe your career failures. mine are horrible too bro. it makes me very sad and i cant get over it.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489229)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:56 PM
Author: ,.,...,..,.,.,:,,:,.,.,:::,..,..,:,.,.:.:.,:.::,.


You will maek it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489291)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:15 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

-edited-

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489416)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:38 PM
Author: greek salad

i read before your edit. sorry bro. that's very rough and life is unbelievably unfair.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489539)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:48 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

Ty. Tbf I don’t mean to externalize all my problems blaming others. My “friend” warned me about the guy’s tendencies in that direction and it was dumb of me to so willingly burn the grad school bridge in light of that.

I’ve made other bad decisions as well, no one reaches this point thru no fault of his own and that’s not how I think of my situation. Although I do believe I got hosed to a considerable extent.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489572)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 10:56 PM
Author: ,.,...,..,.,.,:,,:,.,.,:::,..,..,:,.,.:.:.,:.::,.


Have you ever had a high dosage LSD or Mushroom trip? Those cure depression pretty well by resetting your brain.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489287)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 3:45 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

I've heard that ECT can "reset" your brain to some degree but haven't seen anything credible re LSD or shrooms, which I wouldn't know how to get in any case

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490135)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 6:39 PM
Author: "'"'"''"""


Search on google scholar for psychedelics and depression. DMT, lsd, shrooms and 5-meo-dmt have all shown robust antidepressant effects that are immediate and tend to persist. The mechanism isn't clear, but they seem to increase neural plasticity and allow people to completely reframe life problems. It is difficult for a person who has never used psychedelics to appreciate the significance of this. All the stories you tell yourself about your life will dissolve and you are free to craft a new narrative. Depressed people often get stuck in self-destructive modes of thinking, and psychedelics can free your mind for a moment to see through this.

You can buy an analogue on a site like Lysergi and get it in a week or so. Try 20 mg of 4-aco-dmt and see what happens. You have nothing to lose at this point, and you will know pretty quickly if there is potential there.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492257)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 6:46 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

are the psychoactive chemicals in LSD, shrooms, and DMT all closely related to each other or something? I always believed/assumed the modalities of how psychedelic hallucinogenic drugs were very different, and they just happened to have secondary effects in common.

seems surprising they would ALL work 0n depression and in similar ways but idk

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492284)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 6:59 PM
Author: "'"'"''"""


They are all 5-ht2a agonists with different binding affinities. They produce similar but not identical psychological effects. 4-aco-dmt is the same as shrooms.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492338)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:04 PM
Author: Rachmiel Amadeus (retired)

Poast your note to XO or you’re flame

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489339)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:22 PM
Author: ''''''"'"

?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489442)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:24 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

I haven’t written my note yet as indicated in thread title

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489459)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:15 PM
Author: GAS GAS GAS

You're going to be dead soon anyway faggot. If you hate life so much, spend your few moments on life doing some good in the world. Help animals or some shit. There's plenty of time to be dead

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489413)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:23 PM
Author: Thud Butt

Brother, please don't.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489453)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:24 PM
Author: benzo xx

?

there will still be shitcoins that'll 10x

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489456)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:25 PM
Author: Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489463)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:33 PM
Author: ok this is epic

Being a bartender sounds 180

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489507)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 9:45 AM
Author: Hungry, forkless and losing patience.



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490406)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:34 PM
Author: Holding Back The Years



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489509)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:37 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

Ty for the kind sentiments and gl

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489534)



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Date: July 5th, 2019 11:46 PM
Author: Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)

Np. I could go on about mindfulness, meditation, Jordan Peterson, going to church, etc but tbh what’s helped me the most day in day out has been motivational YouTube videos. I can link a few if youre interested

Just don’t do it brother. You have two arms and two legs. There are over 7 million paraplegics in the world who would kill to be in your situation right now.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489564)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:05 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

I have no doubt that some of those things *can* be helpful. the problem, as I see it in my case, is that you almost certainly have to want to get better in order for them to work.

I have by now been thru at least 3-4 peak-to-trough "fuck the world I WILL maek it!" cycles but now feel I am past the event horizon. motivational talk/speeches/essays just taste bitter to me now. I don't want for things to get better at this point I just want for this all to end.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489606)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:31 AM
Author: Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489676)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:45 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

I have always found kind of hollow the argument that there exists *somewhere* in the world someone suffering more than you.

that said, while I don't necessarily AGREE with what youre saying here, you're making some reasonably good points. I will give them some thought in the coming days/weeks as I contemplate things. tbf I've always intended to devote plenty of time to weighing pros/cons on this decision before the ultimate moment of truth. I mean by definition anyone considering suicide kind of has to, so

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489738)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:00 AM
Author: Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)

Thank you. And I mean that.

Xomormondude@yahoo.com. Please, please just email me when this shit wears off in 48 hours. If I don’t see you here in a week and my inbox is still blank it’s going to fuck with me for a long time. Please don’t do that to me

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489764)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:10 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

ok. I copied your address into my throwaway/xo email so you can edit if you like

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489797)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:23 AM
Author: Mormon missionary (only posts on WSHH and xo)

I could care less about agent Jenkins or dooBs. This is more important. Leaving it up until I get the first message on Monday

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489849)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:06 AM
Author: ,.,.,.,,,.,,,,,,,;.,.,..,:.,,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YhxjNYvJbgM

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489610)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:16 AM
Author: St. Bagelcel



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489633)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:23 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

wld love to in theory but I feel like a murder/suicide exit targeting libs, though the4y deserve it, would push way too much shit onto my family from media and this clown world in general.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489653)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:36 AM
Author: Waveracewar 64

https://youtu.be/kLWvu51Vk4E?t=128

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489699)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:39 AM
Author: St. Bagelcel



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489717)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:45 AM
Author: .,.,...,..,.,..:,,:,...,:::,...,:,.,.:..:.,:,::,.


Why would you plant this idea? OP needs help, not some online bully encouraging him.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489735)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:07 AM
Author: St. Bagelcel



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489784)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:23 AM
Author: faggy retard (retired) ()

same

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489654)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:23 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

srs?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489656)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:32 AM
Author: faggy retard (retired) ()

not next week but eventually sure

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489681)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:38 AM
Author: Absolutely No Couth in SF

How tall are you?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489710)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:06 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

5'11

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489783)



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Date: July 7th, 2019 4:19 AM
Author: Absolutely No Couth in SF

Thread makes more sense now.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38493858)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:38 AM
Author: .,.,.,,,,.,...,.,....................,


So many things you could do with the mindset of idgaf.

Whatever your wildest fantasy, you can just do it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489711)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:47 AM
Author: ''''''"'" (🥃)

Take out life insurance with a one year suicide exclusion. Wait it out, your family will thank you.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489741)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:57 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

I have done this and am outside the contest period for my policy by three or four months by this point.

Whatever financial failings or burdensomeness I have projected onto those in my life, I can, at least, die secure in the knowledge that such has been made whole.



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489758)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:52 AM
Author: Holding Back The Years

Age?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489751)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:56 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

36

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489757)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:37 AM
Author: shalimarseiuliscreenwatchers.gov


Might as well then

good luck in the next plane, brother.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489872)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 2:13 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

ty

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489947)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 11:48 AM
Author: Holding Back The Years

36 is young brother. Endure.

Take control of what you can. Start small and save your pitch document in an email attachment/upload to storage. There's more than one way out and doesn't have to be winning this pitch or death.



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490862)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:59 AM
Author: Windsor Canadian

Why not just move to a cool place and bang sluts all day? You can always completely re-start your life.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489761)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:06 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

I feel that I have addressed the same line of argument in this subthread

http://xoxohth.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&mc=99&forum_id=2#38489141

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489780)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 1:33 AM
Author: Jeremy G. Smart

I actually disagree with the view that suicide is **always** irrational, but it's obviously something that shouldn't be taken lightly.

Is there anything you enjoy spending your time doing?

At the very least, you should spend a few months living as hedonistically as possible, and maybe experiment with some mind-altering psychoactive drugs like ketamine that are supposed to help with chronic, treatment-resistant depression.

I get that you don't feel inclined to do this, but since suicide is permanent, I feel like you owe it to yourself to at least exhaust your other options first.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489868)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 2:12 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

ironically, I actually enjoy(ed) lawmo'ing quite a bit

I have said some variation of this elsewhere ITT but I find the "just do [move to an island]/[bang sluts]/[bang hookers]/[throw yourself into volunteer work]/[etc]" line of argument to be fallacious. it attempts, counterfactually, to project the mindset of a *non-suicidal* speaker onto the subject who has adopted a suicidal mindset or at least believes that they have. the notion of going to "live hedonistically" or just be "kooky" or tell everyone exactly what you think in a totally unfiltered way ala george costanza or some jim carrey film no longer holds appeal to someone who has lost all hope and believes that life is no longer worth living. I believe most "just do [alternative]" suggestions are just cognitively dissonant composites wherein the speaker attempts to merge his/her fundamentally *non* suicidal mindset with their own notions of how they *imagine* they would act if they suddenly found themselves in some sort of 'nothing to lose' scenario.

but like I've told others ITT, I agree that it's not something to be flip about and I have committed myself to mulling the costs/benefits in a way that's as analytical and open minded as possible at least once, in reality probably a good many times over next couple of weeks.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38489946)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 2:29 AM
Author: Jeremy G. Smart

Well either that or it's the reason why someone who otherwise might have been suicidal ultimately didn't become suicidal.

Maybe it would be fun to frivolously sue people for shits and giggles if you no longer have to care about getting disbarred?

Sounds like the core of your depression/hopelessness might be not having any purpose: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YPAesqaJ9tc (1 minute video from a very wise man)

... and I feel like that shouldn't be too hard to find if you're a little creative. The reason to at least try a few things out before kicking the bucket isn't necessarily that you want to live, it's just to find out if you're actually right about how bleak everything is. Which, because it's a mental condition, is not really possible to determine unless you at least try a few things out first.

If you came back on here in three months and said "yeah, so I tried X, Y, and Z, and they didn't bring me happiness," I'd say your decision would at least be a more rational and informed one.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490020)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 3:09 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

ok I'll try and think of some "just do x/y/z" things that might appeal to me, right now nothin g comes to mind

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490100)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 3:17 AM
Author: sun kil moon (ggtp)

Sup LeBron

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490112)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 3:18 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

lol

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490116)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 4:40 AM
Author: GREAT WHITE CHAD



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490161)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 4:41 AM
Author: GOY GUN NUT

🤣

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490163)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 5:14 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

currently listening to Don't Fear The Reaper on repeat

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490177)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 5:37 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

just dealt with some sudden and intense fits of rage and anger. smashed some things up, put at least one hole in a wall.

attempting to calm down now so as not to speed up the timeline I'd set for myself on this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490179)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 5:48 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

almost smashed up laptop in fit of rage. would not have been good because if I have a way out of this (and I don't think I do but IF I did) it would involve pitching a document that exists only on that laptop to a networking contact of mine, and I've told myself I owe it to my family to at least take that long shot before join registering at the big zozo in the sky.

need to figure out a way to calm down without drinking.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490192)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:18 AM
Author: GOY GUN NUT

what triggered your rage mode?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490242)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:52 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

just intensely thinking about the extent to which my life has gotten blown up for a few minutes. probably that and lack of sleep. it wasn't one THING that happened it just happened. not unprecedented as far as my mental health history goes.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490281)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:41 AM
Author: Midsommar? Ponderous, Aggravating

Try to cop ECT first

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490271)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:56 AM
Author: '''''''"'"

that ship has sailed, no legitimate doctor would even dream of authorizing ECT for my situation without months and years spent ruling out the effectiveness of various less drastic treatment protocols

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490289)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 12:23 PM
Author: luis (retired)

?

Maybe you should try those less drastic protocols then?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490985)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 6:27 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

unable

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492203)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 9:33 AM
Author: Sticky, and still cleaning up the mess!

Your system is just rejecting modern life, which is actually a flicker of good mental health. We evolved 10k years, etc.

The benefit to being close to /self is that you can try extremes bc why not?

Go live in the woods like a primitive. What’s the worst case scenario - you die?

Cop dat cabin in a rural place for like 30k.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38490381)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 8:10 PM
Author: boomerboat



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523630)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 6:40 PM
Author: '""'''""'


exactly how much cash do you have on hand? if you have enough to afford living in rural america for like a year or two, I'd do that instead and try to find peace

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492264)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:11 PM
Author: acp (acp)

id like to know this too

arecountrypumo at gmail if you ever want to chat OP, I was like you once

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492379)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:21 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

idk I'd estimate I'm at ~ $10-12,000 cash on hand. which, for me, means it's probably more like $8-9k

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492411)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 6:50 PM
Author: I said RESEMBLE monkeys

planning on doing this when my $$$ runs out which has been unexpectedly replenished this year. I think the best way is a "coach" gun with two triggers and buckshot. I found a nice on yesteday at a pawn shop for $300 would've got it except it was 20 ga I want a 12 ga

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492300)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:17 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

explain what the deal is with a "coach" gun and why it's best?

I've only ever done paintballing and gone to a gun range with friends twice, both times I just shot pistols. in short, for me personally I think it would be unwise to go the firearms route given my inexperience and the various fate-worse-than-death scenarios you open the door to if you screw up GSW



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492400)



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Date: July 10th, 2019 6:29 AM
Author: I said RESEMBLE monkeys

double barreled so you can shoot both rounds at once the guy at the pawn shop was trying to sell me on a mossberg, but i'd only be able to get one round off

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508870)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 12:52 AM
Author: The Natural Living Man

exit bag bro

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38519037)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 6:57 PM
Author: .,,.,...,.,.,.,:,,:.,.,,:::.,...:,.,.:..:.,:.::,.


Method of killself?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492326)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:08 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

MF box cutter to the carotid artery. a clean, direct fucking hit will trigger extremely rapid exsanguination. probably 3-5 min to death and unlikely one is conscious for all of that time.

if unable to locate or sever carotid cleanly I'll start rooting around in the wound for the jugular. if unable to get thru either of the neck's Big Two (it does seem like the logistics of this maneuver could be fairly challenging) I'll regroup and shift focus to the lower extremities, cutting thru one of the femeral arteries, or both as needed.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492370)



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Date: July 7th, 2019 8:24 AM
Author: GREAT WHITE CHAD

Really dumb low ROI method

Exit bag or hanging or train

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38493956)



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Date: July 7th, 2019 8:16 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

whoa don't look now folks we got a MFE here on xo and he has all the best answers on how to accomplish something that he has never, in fact, ac complished. take heed, brothers.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38496997)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:12 PM
Author: teddy tortellini

Unless you are in extreme physical suffering this is never a better alternative than life.

I'm sorry you are so miserable that ending your own life sounds preferable to you.

You likely have not exhausted all your options for contentment. Your career sucks? So what? Go into nature for a week and see if that doesn't help.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492383)



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Date: July 6th, 2019 7:14 PM
Author: there's a wocket in my pocket

don't

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38492395)



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Date: July 7th, 2019 8:21 AM
Author: Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy (r)

Can you put add’l details about your career issues? I’ve been through some insane shit as a lawyer about the same age as you. I would second the recommendations for trying psychedelics. They can basically reboot the entire psychosomatic system - not just mental frameworks & ego narratives, but physical components of being defeated, etc.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38493952)



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Date: July 7th, 2019 8:49 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

I posted some earlier but edited as the details were specific enough it definitely *could* out me.

I somewhat doubt that anyone who would recognize my story or who still GAF about me continues posting here on xo, particularly as the latter category has only adjusted in the downward direction over the past ten years or so.

nonetheless it's still a decently realistic possibility and I don't want to risk complicating things over the next few weeks. as we get closer I'll consider writing it back out at some off peak time, so if you're really interested remind me I said this towards the end of July.

it's somewhat academic because people taking the anti-suicide position will never find "career problems" to be adequate justification, as one can always have a different career and there are innumerable (many apocryphal) "examples" of famous person failing in x/y/z endeavor only to maek it beyond all wildest dreams in something else.

so the particulars of my career situation are never going to convince someone who doesn't want to be convinced. to that I would say that (1) career remains an incredibly important and largely self-defining aspect of modern life, particularly for men whom studies have shown always take career hits hard on a personal level. and (2) obviously it is not JUST a matter wanting some mythological "career success" and in reality it ISN'T just about career/professional life. long term career downturn has revealed and exacerbated various other problems, caused decompensation in modalities that, formerly, kept the worst of the psychic demons at bay. it has precipitated a general and across-the-board decline in "living well." relations with family members deteriorate. I had, as recently as say 2013, somewhere between 4-6 lifelong, hardcore, call-them-to-bail-you-out friends in my life, today I have zero. drug and alcohol abuse increased. sexual practices became more degenerate. and etcetera, and etcetera, and etcetera.

in short, no I, of course, cannot defend professional setbacks as a complete justification for killing self, but then it's also far from the complete reason I'm doing it. professional setbacks have simply hastened the erosion of the gloss and lacquer in my life that, formerly, if the light hit them just so, sometimes gave a normal appearance to what is, and in fact always was, an abandoned and malignant heart.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38497201)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:01 PM
Author: Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy (r)

Gotcha. Don’t necessarily disagree with your assessment or that it would cause a turn towards the void.

Consider that typically darkness has certain narratives, internally coherent based on ego frameworks that are totally useful and socially true in some cases. The role of therapeutic psychedelics is to disrupt these narratives in startling fashion, and to cause an about face in how one tees up daily life and self views. It is this about face that leaves open the possibility for radical new strategies.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507610)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:10 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

all of life is l'appel du vide

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507660)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:24 PM
Author: Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy (r)

Agree, but I am telling you it’s woth blasting into the outer verse via shrooms before you undo yourself.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507731)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:25 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

ty I will look into acquiring

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507738)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 10:07 PM
Author: Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy (r)

music festivals or any local jammy band event are good.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507919)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 10:13 PM
Author: ...:........;;.........,;:..........:.;....:::....


Well you are a good writer

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507945)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 10:14 PM
Author: Cis-Blender Protesting a Banana Smoothy (r)



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507949)



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Date: July 7th, 2019 8:42 AM
Author: ,.,,,,....,,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,,.,.,.


have you read Ayn Rand, friend?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38493970)



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Date: July 8th, 2019 7:31 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

I read Anthem in junior high and The Fountainhead in HS

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38501893)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 8:58 PM
Author: ,.,,,,....,,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,,.,.,.


maybe try blasting through Atlas Shrugged on audiobook before you off yourself, see if it gives you second thoughts

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507599)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 8:46 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

purchased materials to carry this out today and began composing suicide notes. expect to write 4-5 and that it will take about a week.

so ready to be free from all of this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507554)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 8:52 PM
Author: Woah Cr friend!

Rate me as a poaster

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507577)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:11 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

178

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507663)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 10:56 PM
Author: ,...,.,,,,..,.,.,,,..,,,,,,....,.,.,.


bullshit hes 180

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508129)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:06 PM
Author: Lewis Powell

Poast each note so we can advise on best one to leave. Tyia

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507634)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:14 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

won't be doing this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507676)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:06 PM
Author: greek salad

what did you buy?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507636)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:13 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

purchased variety of box cutters and similar razor blades

filled prescription for blood thinners and benzodiazepines to help nudge shit over the finish line

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507673)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:14 PM
Author: greek salad

don't do this bro

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507678)



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Date: July 10th, 2019 12:57 AM
Author: cannon

Why do you have a prescription for blood thinners?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508589)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 8:44 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

family member's script but in my state I can pick up "for them"

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38517660)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:16 PM
Author: donny (retired) (donny)

please don't dude. You can seriously change what your brain is telling you. Dietary and sleep changes and exercise can really help. Try those things first. I know it sounds basic but diet itself can make an enormous difference if you sort of know what you're doing and trying to accomplish. Basically you can't trust your judgment in this state.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507688)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 10:57 PM
Author: exeunt (0x6c542c3a976e324ccb84d594cbc084bd57597849)

plz don't killself :(

the vast majority of people who try to kill themselves and fail regret their attempt. most people who jumped off the golden gate bridge absolutely regretted it as they were plummeting to the water. the ones that survived mostly did not try again.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508134)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 3:43 AM
Author: GOY GUN NUT

Post pics of materials or flame

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513742)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 8:43 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

took my iPhone to get screen replaced will post pics tomorrow

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38517647)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 8:47 PM
Author: luke screenwatcher (luis)

Lold at the thought of a a guy who is about to kill himself going to the mall to get his iPhone screen replaced first

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38517674)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 2:28 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

getting it and a large crack in my iPad repaired also. I'm not leaving all that much behind in terms of inheritance so I'd like my family to get some stuff that's not completely smashed junk

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38521701)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 8:56 PM
Author: Metal Up Your Ass

wtf

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38517747)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 7:48 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

I just went with stuff like this. everything I read said that if your goal truly is to get it done this'll do you.

https://imgur.com/a/Ixtj2dz

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523548)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 7:53 PM
Author: GOY GUN NUT

Why did you buy extra blades?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523565)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 8:50 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

it only comes with one off the shelf and you run the risk you might get stuck with a dull/no good blade as the inclusion

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523810)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:00 PM
Author: ,.,...,..,.,.,:,.,,.,.,:;,......;,..,;,:..:,::,.


race?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507608)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:11 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

white

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507666)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 3:45 AM
Author: AZNgirl ordering all NOWAGS back to their country

lol u really need to ask?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513746)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:22 PM
Author: Woah Cr friend!

Suicide is the ultimate act of conformity

Why not rebel against the modern world order

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507717)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 10:07 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

I like you a lot as a poaster but I have no idea what this means

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507923)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 10:54 PM
Author: Woah Cr friend!

In society you are trapped within a system of implicit rules you had no say in. Things like career are just a weird abstraction. You can reject it all.



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508116)



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Date: July 10th, 2019 12:08 AM
Author: Holding Back The Years



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508431)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 2:19 AM
Author: ok this is epic



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513642)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:34 PM
Author: .,.,.,,,,,,,,,,,,............,,,,,,,,,,,,


ive been there brother. im not going to give you any advice because when i was there i probably would have told them to fuck off. but i feel you bro.

what would you need to have happen in your life to make you feel better?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507777)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 9:56 PM
Author: .,.,.,,,,,,,,,,,,............,,,,,,,,,,,,


i said im not going to give you advice, but i'm going to give you advice in the form of "this is what got me through a very dark time". im now on the other side and have accepted i will always have depression symptoms of some form in my life, but i dont want to actively die right now, which is nice.

but i first got treatment for depression in 2012. i started taking wellbutrin. life got better for a bit. but then some shit happened in 2014 that really upturned my life. depression got really bad. and then my sleep got really bad. once that happened my mood fell throug the fucking floor. after 3 nights of less than two hours of sleep i remember walking into work and thinking "ok, this is how its gonna happen". i didn't have a date though.

i went ahead and called my psych and he gave me mirtazapine. that shit knocked me the fuck out and got me sleeping. i was still depressed, but i didn't want to kill myself.

i have no idea what sort of med cocktail is right for certain types of depression. i do know that i have meloncholic depression, which used to be a subtype in the DSM4. i dont know if its in the DSM5.

but if the lack of sleep is whats killing you, and you have the same subtype of depression that i do (this shit falls into similar patterns hwere totally different people do/feel the same things) you should call a psych and ask them about mirtazapine.

wont make you automatically not be depressed. but, i mean, you'll at least sleep.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38507871)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 11:51 PM
Author: Big Guy For You

Don't off yourself bro and go out like another whispering statistic. At a minimum if you are at the point where you don't care anymore, you have attained freedom from the mortal coil.

Instead of offing yourself, drop out of society, live it up, make your enemies suffer, do something memorable that will leave people in awe. Just use the opportunity to do something grand. If it is all meaningless embrace it and try to do something as remarkable as possible; crazy, stupid, clever, genius, philanthropic, ect.

If there if there is nothing but the void at the end, who cares if people laugh or are shocked at what you do. If there is an afterlife, you will have something great to talk about with your ancestors, heroes of old, and the divine.

Don't off yourself, use this golden opportunity to have the time of your life



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508375)



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Date: July 9th, 2019 11:53 PM
Author: ,..,...,,,.,.;.,.,..,,.,.,.;.,..,.,.,;,.,.:,.,.,.,


Dick size and height?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508381)



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Date: July 10th, 2019 11:51 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

height answered elsewhere ITT

dick size apps 6.5"

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513349)



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Date: July 10th, 2019 12:16 AM
Author: Lewis Powell

How many simpsons references in the suicide note?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38508465)



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Date: July 10th, 2019 11:50 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

probably none but classic Simpsons is 180

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513346)



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Date: July 10th, 2019 11:50 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

thinking of texting this girl I randomly hooked up with last month. not sure how it relates but feel a strong desire to contact her, somehow related to all this. feels unfair to her and wrong, though.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513345)



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Date: July 10th, 2019 11:56 PM
Author: SomeOtherGhost

What happened to your career dude?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513356)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 2:27 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

gone

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38521685)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 7:51 PM
Author: SomeOtherGhost

In what fashion?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523560)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 9:17 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

French exit

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523909)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 2:20 AM
Author: GREAT WHITE CHAD

Do it already

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513643)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 8:47 PM
Author: GREAT WHITE CHAD



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523804)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 9:06 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

working on it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523880)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 2:51 AM
Author: HONKLER THE CLOWN

don't do it...this will all blow over

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38513677)



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Date: July 11th, 2019 9:24 PM
Author: histrionic bitchmade lawyerfaggot

quit being so histrionic

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38517958)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 10:26 AM
Author: cannon

You're a good writer and this was top shelf flame.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38520194)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 10:32 AM
Author: Vice.com (👁☀️👁)

hold the door

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38520235)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 8:45 PM
Author: Refunkulus (never count out a MUSCLE NUT)

Don’t do it man.

I can pretty much 100% guarantee that you are miserable because of alcohol and drug abuse combined with insomnia is causing your depression to become unmanageable.

For someone who is depressed, alcohol and drug abuse is like throwing gasoline onto the fire. You need to remove the inflammation before you can start to make a concerted assault on your depression. You must attack it and overcome it - you need to start hacking your way out of the dark forest.

You are not trying to address the root causes of your suicidal impulses from what I can see in your posting, like if you were being logical you would have been stone sober before your made the decision to kill your self - then you could arrive at a clear conclusion if it was a rational decision.

I didn’t see the stuff about your career being ruined - so I can’t comment on it - but you need to pick up the pieces and move on. I had a similar problem where I had my career (I wanted to be a lawyer) basically destroyed due to some very unfortunate events and dropped out of law school - during this time I was a major alcoholic, smoking cigarettes and abusing drugs and being a degenerate piece of shit - but guess what? I kept going.

If you told me I would be doing what I am doing now - I wouldn’t believe it. I found success in a field that I never thought I was gonna be in when I dropped out of LS and guess what - that is in addition to having my own business in a professional area where I knew I would succeed.

Don’t give up on yourself dude - but you need to get sober before you decide to end it - because your not thinking clearly, and if you have the same inclination when you don’t have any drugs or alcohol or degenerate shit clouding your judgement then so be it. Like for example if you cared about your parents you would have tried to commit suicide by faking your own death in an elaborate manner rather than brutally murdering yourself.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523796)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 8:51 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

ironically I haven't had a drop of alcohol in over a month

I want to have a clean tox screen when they do my autopsy

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38523814)



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Date: July 12th, 2019 11:26 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

Will there be an autopsy or inquest? What determines this?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38524326)



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Date: July 16th, 2019 7:05 PM
Author: histrionic bitchmade lawyerfaggot

You're a good dood, man.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38542220)



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Date: July 15th, 2019 3:31 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

suicide notes written. for the most part anyway, I have to do some more work on the one for my parents/mom.

targeting this Thursday or Friday for final exit.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38536107)



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Date: July 15th, 2019 3:32 PM
Author: Woah Cr friend!

Prove it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38536110)



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Date: July 15th, 2019 3:38 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

I'm not poasting my suicide notes to my family/LT ex gf and such. what else would you like me to prove?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38536135)



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Date: July 15th, 2019 3:39 PM
Author: ,.,.,.,.,.,,.,.,.,.,..,.,


Poast pics of the box cutters next to the benzos.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38536140)



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Date: July 15th, 2019 4:05 PM
Author: tats

bye federer, ur wifes gonna be even more cow like now lmao

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38536274)



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Date: July 16th, 2019 6:36 PM
Author: '''''''"'"

doing it now, bye xo. thanks to the people who reached out ITT.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38542090)



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Date: July 16th, 2019 7:10 PM
Author: ,..,...,,,.,.;.,.,..,,.,.,.;.,..,.,.,;,.,.:,.,.,.,


Don't forget to change monikers when you come back next week.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38542238)



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Date: July 16th, 2019 7:11 PM
Author: histrionic bitchmade lawyerfaggot

JFC, dude. Don't do this. So, your career is trashed at the moment. Who cares? You otherwise have your family and physical health. There will be additional opportunities for you in the future. I went through similar depressive periods on more than one occasion that probably were far bleaker than anything you're currently facing and had very strong urges to take my own life. I waited out the storm and I'm now in a relatively good and healthy place in most every aspect of my life. It doesn't even sound as if you made any real effort to address your problems. This will kill your parents. Just don't do it.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38542245)



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Date: July 16th, 2019 7:12 PM
Author: Sen. Bernard Sanders (biryani)

hopefully this is flame. but if not, godspeed and RIP.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38542255)



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Date: July 17th, 2019 8:29 PM
Author: GREAT WHITE CHAD



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38548042)



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Date: July 17th, 2019 11:31 AM
Author: cannon

Just circling back. Where are we on this?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38545536)



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Date: July 16th, 2019 6:40 PM
Author: Rep. Ilhan Turdbar (Zurich is Stained)

Very morbid thread

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38542104)



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Date: July 16th, 2019 7:08 PM
Author: Woah Cr friend!



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38542229)



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Date: July 17th, 2019 11:33 AM
Author: Vice.com (👁☀️👁)

Happens to the best of us

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38545545)



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Date: July 17th, 2019 11:38 AM
Author: greek salad



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4296865&forum_id=2#38545567)