(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40947303)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40947279)

Poasted about it, it will be a month in 3 days.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40947294)

people that have not gone through a similar experience won't understand until it happens to them

but those of us that belong to that unfortunate club are with you, brother

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40947349)

One month in and your still tearing up at random moments

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40953196)

That's so strange how your father did not cry and only took half a day. I basically requested a week of my vacation time. I had not taken my vacation and I figured I wasn't in the mood to go anywhere, so I might as well take it now. But I don't get people who can do that. You create a bond with this person from the time you're a baby and suddenly you will never see them again. It's just a natural reaction. How can they supress it? I don't even think it's healthy to do so.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40947386)

Then, all the lights flickered throughout the house and dammit if my mom's car alarm went off like a son of a bitch. No one was near it, no weather to speak of etc. My aunt grabbed her keys which were still on the island and tried to turn the horn off but it kept fucking going and wouldnt stop. It turned off on its own. We all looked at each other half wanting to cry, and then my whole family laughed together and didnt question it was my mom saying goodbye.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40948062)

http://www.oprah.com/inspiration/signs-your-loved-ones-might-be-trying-to-contact-you

The author of What the Dead Have Taught Me About Living Well explains how spiritual mediums identify the presence of departed friends and family. Although some indicators may sound a little weird, as the author says, "signs from the Other Side often increase in frequency and size when they are focused on and acknowledged."

1. Dimes: Spirit can inspire coins to appear in random and unusual places as a way to get our attention—often as a message of prosperity or to encourage you to value your worth. Because coins, especially pennies, are often found lying around in the home, at the bottom of your purse, or in the subway or train station, it may be hard to distinguish between spiritual intervention and chance circumstance. So, when you find coins, pay attention to patterns that consistently reappear. Do you typically find dimes? Do you often find a penny and a nickel together? Does the date on the coin hold any meaning for you?

2. The family dog: Similar to children, animals easily pick up on the departed because they're highly sensitive creatures. When your pets look like they're watching an invisible fly move around the room; when they whimper or growl in a certain direction but at nothing in particular; when they act as if they're playing with someone, running in circles, jumping all over the place or swatting the air—they may be recognizing spirits. Sure, a lot of times animals just behave this way. But when unusual behavior is accompanied by a request for spiritual intervention, it's very possible your departed loved ones or guides have answered your call.

3. The smell of cigarettes: Have you ever noticed a strong odor or fragrance in the air around you, with no indication of where it was coming from? This could be your departed loved ones manifesting a specific scent that you associated with them in life, to let you know they are still with you. It might be a perfume, cologne, cigarette odor, the smell of certain foods, or any other distinguishable and unique scent.

4. Blown lightbulbs: It's easy for spirits to manipulate electricity and cross wires, so to speak, because both spirits and electricity are forms of energy that vibrate at a high frequency and are highly charged. Look for lights flickering in the house, lightbulbs blowing out or disturbance with television sets, radios, appliances and computers. These are all typical spirit moves, and often just their way of saying hello.

5. Toddlers: Have you ever noticed that kids can say the most insightful things—wise beyond their years—at just the right time? Young children often serve as little messengers for our departed loved ones and spirit guides. The departed connect easily with children because they live in the present moment and are much more dialed in to their intuitive senses. They feel and sense the presence of Spiritand will relay messages from beyond without judgment or question.

6. Love songs: Your departed loved ones and guides may communicate with you through a song title or lyric that reminds you of them at the exact time you are thinking about them. They may also try and provide you with clarity and guidance through a series of songs with a resounding theme or message that answers a question you have about a particular situation.

7. Last night's dream: Spirits like to communicate with us in this altered mental state because our thinking mind is turned down and our intuitive knowing is turned up. When we're visited by the departed and our guides in our dreams, we're often left with lasting impressions and insights that help direct us forward in our waking life.

8. Billboards: Sometimes the departed and your guides will use literal signs to capture your attention. These "signs"—billboards, advertisements, street names, shop signs and flyers—generally address a specific question you want an answer to. Signage is everywhere, so it's up to you to discern the difference between messages that are inspired or insignificant. This is one of the instances where you really need to trust that you will know it when you see it.

9. Formations in the sky: Rainbows are my personal sign for the Other Side, and they are a common symbol of divine love. If you ask your departed loved ones or guides for assistance and a rainbow appears shortly after that, remember that you are connected to divine love within you, as you, and that you're never alone.

Setting the intention to be open to the signs is your best strategy for noticing them. While they may feel small and easy to dismiss at first, signs from the Other Side often increase in frequency and size when they are focused on and acknowledged.

Read more: http://www.oprah.com/inspiration/signs-your-loved-ones-might-be-trying-to-contact-you#ixzz6YYGyXnla

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40952365)

I’ve only been particularly close to one person who died (closest and favorite grandparent - we spoke a few times/week, even through college, law school, and my 20s, which was more often than I talked to my parents). It’s been almost 10 years and I still think about her a few times/week now. The overwhelming sadness and occasionally forgetting that she’s gone (e.g., “Think I’ll call Grams on the way home! Oh...”) are long in the past, but I still absolutely miss her. Eventually you’ll get to a place where when you think of him it’s happy rather than sad.

Sorry for your loss.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40947403)

If the other parent is still living, make the most of it. My dad died well before my mom did. His death made me realize that I had to make rhe most of my time with my mom. So we took road trips, went to events together, and I asked her about her side of the family. Make the most of whichever parent remain, man. The day they leave too will come much faster than anticipated.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40947931)

With my mom it gets worse. The nightmares get worse. I’m always in the dream talking to her and realizing it’s a dream and crying in the dream then waking up crying.

Best advice I can give is just don’t be afraid to take a day off from work and tell everyone to fuck off for a day. I had my first kid two weeks after my mom died so my emotions were on hold and would pop up at random times. But thank god my boss told me if I ever need to go home I can. So if you’re working and feel like shit, go home instead of letting emotions get into the way in public (anger, sadness, etc). But it never gets better.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40947964)

It's been just over 4 years since my mother died after 2 years of her fighting a very aggressive cancer. She was an alcoholic by the end of it. Before her cancer I was ready to cut ties over the alcohol. So much anger. Then the diagnosis hit. Then 2 years, and then that part of my life was over. The anger went away and I've been left with gratitude and love and respect for everything - but it's not necessarily easy now either.

Grief changes over time, and how depends on the person - like grief wine. The first year was tough. Ups and downs, but I literally packed up and left everything behind. Moved to europe for more than 1 reason, but the distance didnt help the grief at all even if I didnt realize at the time that's what I was subconsciously hoping would happen. It follows you wherever you are, so you need to work on accepting and using it instead of being victim to it. After 9 months, and a very good mushroom trip in a park in Paris in springtime (highly suggest shrooms, or Paris or both to help), I began to actually process the loss and move forward with it. After the first year I had more gratitude towards life and all my mother did for me (despite the alcoholism and the rest) and a new perspective on my own life that I will be forever grateful for. She continues to make me a better person and sometimes I get angry about that, but then I laugh and still feel the love as if she's right there. It can be beautiful if you let it, if a bit hard sometimes.

It doesn't go away. It doesn't necessarily get easier. It gets different. If you use it, you can become a better version of yourself. Death is the the most natural thing next to life. It feels so singular and narcissistically your own, but everyone goes through it and your very much not the only one feeling that way right now. In the 5th year since my mother's death, I still think about her all the time. I want to tell her whats going on in the family and ask her advice, but I'd know what she'd say anyway all the same and it's really a nice thing to be reminded of her randomly during a day.

Be grateful, be happy, and don't get stuck in the grief. If they loved you, they wouldn't want to you be sad or angry or depressed, but to live your life carrying a bit of them with you always.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40948020)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40950541)

I got "lucky" (bad way to put it really) my mom died before I could even say a word. Of course it sucked growing up without a mother, but now that I get to feel the loss of a father, I imagine losing a mother would have been equally or a lot worse. Now I have nobody to lose.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4628086&forum_id=2#40952403)