The problem is she says I'm really distant and she feels unwanted. This is after me putting off sex twice in a month. Fucking twice!?! I've been rejected thousands of times.

I'm close to a month sober. Last time I drank was at a giant house the dance people rented for a convention. Wife and I disappeared and left our kids with other families to watch. I'm sure they think I'm a degenerate. It was pretty bad.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5539997&forum_id=2\u0026mark_id=5310486#47741555)

Lol I got back to the hotel room and she bought markers and wrote free bjs on the mirror. Lol

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5539997&forum_id=2\u0026mark_id=5310486#47879623)

1) I'm mad at you, have no intention of making up but I want to fuck

2) mad but want to feel close

3) sex to make you happy

4) in love with you and want to jump your bones asap

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5539997&forum_id=2\u0026mark_id=5310486#47885854)

Here is the part I want to convey...I was pissed at her and said zero chance I'm fucking her when we get back. She went ballistic, told me I'm not a real man, I never make her cum etc. lol sure babe. Turn a horny women down and they loose their mind. I've been turned down for sex a trillion times. I held strong and didn't fuck. I was unloading the bags this morning and she asked where the vibrator was...hint hint. I have it to her and follow her up stairs. She was crazy wet. I could barely get it in before she came all over me. Didn't even use the vibrator. And I do suck at sex, I'm very about myself and probably too rough. Very average dick but she still has to take 5 mins before I can get it all in there. I'm like 6.5 on a good day.

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This year was dominated by me stopping drinking which I thought was a big part of our sex life. At least it was a big trigger for me. Apparently that was not an issue for my wife. If anything I think she fucked so much in spite of me being shit faced 24/7.

She is far more forward with me now and uses language that even I wasn't allowed to say before. It's a fine line though. She wants to be dominated but nothing degrading. Think like a protector that also holds you down and fucks you. She declared that she actually enjoys giving me a BJ, just ask and be showered.

Kids went back to school in September and I have a WFH day per week which used to be productive. Now I have to worry about missing emails or meetings because we're in bed having sex all day...well that's still the same. But now I'm sober and better at giving her what she wants. It's shit like toss her on the bed, fuck her in the bathroom spontaneously and pull her hair. No rape fantasy though and no choking. Also no ass play but I could see that changing. She doesn't like porn either.

We had sex last night for maybe 2 hours. I woke up at around 4:00 and she wanted to go again. All day my texts are all naked pictures and some really naughty ones. She's been taking pics of her wet panties and begging me to blow off work. Sucky part is we won't get an hour long gap in our kid activities until 9:00. Oh yeah, any time on the daily agenda with more than a 45 min gap is slated as sex time. Her favorite thing to do is get really stoned and put on bad sex movies and fuck until the kids wake up.

Keep in mind, in our 20s we were very boring with maybe once a week sex.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5539997&forum_id=2\u0026mark_id=5310486#48254913)

We had last night at 7:00, 11:00 and 3:00 am. Then we had sex right around when you bumped this. Last night the second time was her showing off the others were holding her down and fuck her hard.

If sol moons like crazy I might give in to the boobjob. Pretty routine lately though. I don't drink and I'm busy. No idea how I did all this shit people expect of me drunk off my ass 24/7. I fuck up now all the time. I guess life really is just flame.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5539997&forum_id=2\u0026mark_id=5310486#48621992)

Post drinking productivity initially spiked but then settled back in. I was mostly drunk for the past few years though. I definitely sleep more too. Everything else is the same just boring. I guess that's probably the best we can expect.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5539997&forum_id=2\u0026mark_id=5310486#48625690)

Showing up shit faced drunk after a 10 hour car ride with a dirt bike for my 7 year old didn't go over well.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5539997&forum_id=2\u0026mark_id=5310486#48643990)

I will add that over the past year or so she started to actually get off and being pounded out. I'd do it before but I know she was just taking it. But now she asks for it and if I back off she bucks back. The entire time I'm thinking damn she's getting off on just a penis and good thing she doesn't know about cock because I'd be done day one.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5539997&forum_id=2\u0026mark_id=5310486#49493436)