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i have constant nightmares caused by the demiurge these days, not flame
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Date: November 17th, 2022 12:45 PM Author: Flesh Parlor Alpha really nasty ones too (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507137) |
Date: November 17th, 2022 12:45 PM Author: Emerald Clown Dilemma 180 (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507139) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 12:47 PM Author: Flesh Parlor Alpha its really highly unpleasant, the deeply evil, malevolent force that controls all of material reality really does not want that fact known and will destroy anyone and everyone who figures it out . if you look at all historical figures that pursued truth as a first priority they have been destroyed and died young and peniless (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507145) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 2:07 PM Author: rough-skinned flirting juggernaut (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507510) |
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Date: June 12th, 2023 6:53 PM Author: rough-skinned flirting juggernaut (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#46419474) |
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Date: August 19th, 2023 7:30 PM Author: rough-skinned flirting juggernaut (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#46690364) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 2:06 PM Author: Flesh Parlor Alpha (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507507) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 2:17 PM Author: shimmering antidepressant drug Everything OK? I woke my wife up because I was laughing in my sleep and pounding on the bed. I tried to get her to ask me what was so funny, but she was in no mood and I've now forgotten. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507578) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 2:20 PM Author: Flesh Parlor Alpha ive had these nightmares for at least a couple months now, as i delved deeper into all this stuff the worse they got. i actually have a necklace cross in the dresser next to my bed and if i wear it at night i don't have the nightmares or at least not nearly as bad, not flame (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507608) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 2:23 PM Author: shimmering antidepressant drug have you considered adopting right action and right practice and right speech and contemplating the nature of Self and reality until you develop a dhamma eye ( https://accesstoinsight.org/lib/study/into_the_stream.html#arising ) sufficient to dispel shadows like the demiurge bedeviling you? (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507623) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 2:26 PM Author: Flesh Parlor Alpha i think i live my life pretty well without hurting others, or at least i try to. buddhism seems to be about accepting the nature of suffering, while i rebel against this suffering system entirely. i did a 10 day vipassana silent retreat back in the day and ended up having sensory visions
in one of my less intense nightmares last night i tried to reason with the demiurge and ask why it does what it does and told it its okay for it to stop and to allow justice to prevail, i got a sense it thought i was impertinent and it otherwise refused to answer my comments |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 2:28 PM Author: shimmering antidepressant drug Sounds 180.
IDK that Buddhism is about accepting the nature of suffering so much as accepting the reality of impermanence and non-self (which cashes out to an understanding and appreciation of suffering, and can ultimately dissolve suffering). But I'd have to think about that formulation.
Anyway, what you describe sounds like a common phase a lot of meditation practitioners / seekers go through. It's like a fever and it must run its course.
(That or you're having some sort of psychotic break -- also something to look out for.) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 2:33 PM Author: Flesh Parlor Alpha given a psychological baseline is the ability and willingness act in accordance with the promotion of materialist society (per xo ted), i don't think i've yet suffered a psychotic break, but the internal feeling of alienation from mainstream society is indeed intense & i've mostly come around to accepting the world, except for ideological dissidents who are victims, deserves to get nuked (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507691) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 3:04 PM Author: shimmering antidepressant drug It is a real strain, when your inward view is so different from the others you interface with. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507864) |
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Date: November 17th, 2022 3:05 PM Author: Flesh Parlor Alpha (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237141&forum_id=2#45507870) |