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hate myself for it, but on some level, i resent that i missed out on debauchery

at least, to the full modern extent of it. this is dumb and ...
maroon corner depressive
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stirring indian lodge international law enforcement agency
  09/27/22
Date: March 23rd, 2021 1:33 PM Author: ,.,.,.,.,,.,..,:,,:,...
rough-skinned translucent center
  09/27/22
i literally got fucked into a coma
peach tripping native
  09/27/22
wat
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
GRIDS --> opportunistic infection --> pathologic immun...
bull headed pervert national
  09/27/22
lmao Date: September 27th, 2022 4:43 AM Author: queens...
olive glittery station
  09/27/22
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exciting senate mediation
  09/27/22
No wonder you are such an angry young man.
Spectacular jet black woman resort
  09/27/22
facing my shadow here, whok. i know.
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
You have these very romanticised notions of the world.
Spectacular jet black woman resort
  09/27/22
go on...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
You just do man. It's like your stuck in the 1950s. It's str...
Spectacular jet black woman resort
  09/27/22
i'm romanticizing the 19th century, if anything.
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
180 where in the South are you?
Spectacular jet black woman resort
  09/27/22
you have a weird view of america. no one in the south can th...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
There isn't a whole lot to think about but everything intell...
Spectacular jet black woman resort
  09/27/22
ah forgot you were a flannery o'conner enjoyer.
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
Are Deep South states livable these days?
Spectacular jet black woman resort
  09/27/22
I still like new France but it's rough.
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
18000000000. Have you met man o'war yet?
Spectacular jet black woman resort
  09/27/22
How did you miss out?
filthy gold volcanic crater electric furnace
  09/27/22
easy romance and sex is something i more or less bowed out o...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
Theres no such thing as easy sex or romance in 2022. That wa...
filthy gold volcanic crater electric furnace
  09/27/22
eh maybe. seems like other people aren't quite as lonely. ca...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
I think its fairly naive to assume theyre all having hot sex...
filthy gold volcanic crater electric furnace
  09/27/22
agreed. to be fair, i'm thinking moreso short flings you kno...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
This. These days height is beauty and height is rare. 6&rsqu...
Floppy casino
  09/27/22
do you see the problem with instagram being the way people m...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
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Claret hall
  09/27/22
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Floppy casino
  09/27/22
Ljl at 6’7 pulling chicks. Today you gotta be a 7 foot...
Soul-stirring poppy nursing home
  09/27/22
can confirm source: am 6'9
frozen pale school
  09/27/22
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marvelous forum party of the first part
  09/27/22
perhaps why i'm so mean to gjr is that i get it all, on some...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
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Nofapping Pearl Theatre Generalized Bond
  09/27/22
Find God and reject Worldly pleasures
lemon misunderstood den
  09/27/22
paul tells us to be celibate if we can, but to be wed and la...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
So find marriage track gf
lemon misunderstood den
  09/27/22
Little late in the day
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
mid 30's is not even close to too late...
ruddy location
  09/27/22
But 2022 is
filthy gold volcanic crater electric furnace
  09/27/22
Sounds shitty.
180 toilet seat trump supporter
  09/27/22
You are a kind of mirror image of GJR --- she makes a vice o...
Gaped Rehab Blood Rage
  09/27/22
Just occurred to me last night. Fuck.
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
you can save each other.
narrow-minded home indirect expression
  09/27/22
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Gaped Rehab Blood Rage
  09/27/22
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Gaped Rehab Blood Rage
  09/27/22
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marvelous forum party of the first part
  09/27/22
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galvanic piazza
  09/27/22
Go to Thailand
cyan temple new version
  09/27/22
It's not too late
galvanic piazza
  09/27/22
Pussy is pussy, you're not missing out on much.
motley crystalline french chef
  09/27/22
is it sinful if i hook lex up with debacherous art hoes, i.e...
galvanic piazza
  09/27/22
No, it's not sinful. An endless stream of BPD art hoes lick...
motley crystalline french chef
  09/27/22
This seems like sarcasm but I do think it'll help
galvanic piazza
  09/27/22
tinder/bumble in their heyday were different. things were di...
marvelous forum party of the first part
  09/27/22
Lex thread
multi-colored range
  09/27/22
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Odious rigor
  09/27/22
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stirring indian lodge international law enforcement agency
  09/27/22
"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" ...
rough-skinned translucent center
  09/27/22
Lmao Jesus Christ dude Why are you so extremely online i...
Plum Spot
  09/27/22
i'm pretty lost man. first step is figuring out how i got he...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
also you need to get over being so hung up on women and gett...
Plum Spot
  09/27/22
I really like women and have no idea how to navigate modern ...
maroon corner depressive
  09/27/22
you just ask women out irl. it's not that hard figure out...
Plum Spot
  09/27/22
“Swinging like a helpless branch in the wind of an unc...
canary shitlib
  09/27/22
we're just getting started
Sienna yarmulke
  09/27/22


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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:20 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

at least, to the full modern extent of it. this is dumb and i was a loser anyway. but it's hard not to feel envious occasionally. if the world's going to hell, why not enjoy the downfall?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236852)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 9:47 AM
Author: stirring indian lodge international law enforcement agency



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237253)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 9:48 AM
Author: rough-skinned translucent center

Date: March 23rd, 2021 1:33 PM

Author: ,.,.,.,.,,.,..,:,,:,,.,:::,.,,.,:.,,.:.,:.,:.::,.

idk but dat feeling when you’re finally able to scratch your butthole and relieve the itch is 180

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4793914&forum_id=2#42152483)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237259)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:43 AM
Author: peach tripping native

i literally got fucked into a coma

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236861)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:45 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

wat

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236867)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 6:35 AM
Author: bull headed pervert national

GRIDS --> opportunistic infection --> pathologic immune response --> ascending paralysis

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236959)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 2:46 PM
Author: olive glittery station

lmao

Date: September 27th, 2022 4:43 AM

Author: queensbridge benzo

i literally got fucked into a coma

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45239157)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 3:07 PM
Author: exciting senate mediation



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45239288)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:45 AM
Author: Spectacular jet black woman resort

No wonder you are such an angry young man.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236866)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:46 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

facing my shadow here, whok. i know.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236868)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:47 AM
Author: Spectacular jet black woman resort

You have these very romanticised notions of the world.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236869)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:49 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

go on...

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236870)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:50 AM
Author: Spectacular jet black woman resort

You just do man. It's like your stuck in the 1950s. It's strange shit.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236871)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:52 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

i'm romanticizing the 19th century, if anything.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236874)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:03 AM
Author: Spectacular jet black woman resort

180 where in the South are you?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236880)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:05 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

you have a weird view of america. no one in the south can think about america before 1950, except to express grievances over the war of northern aggression (i'm from there, but haven't lived there in decades).

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236883)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:12 AM
Author: Spectacular jet black woman resort

There isn't a whole lot to think about but everything intellectual, creative, and interesting about the US has cum from the South.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236890)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:13 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

ah forgot you were a flannery o'conner enjoyer.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236892)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:19 AM
Author: Spectacular jet black woman resort

Are Deep South states livable these days?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236897)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:19 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

I still like new France but it's rough.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236898)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:24 AM
Author: Spectacular jet black woman resort

18000000000. Have you met man o'war yet?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236901)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:50 AM
Author: filthy gold volcanic crater electric furnace

How did you miss out?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236873)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:53 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

easy romance and sex is something i more or less bowed out of years ago, for instance. i haven't had a non-organic relationship once.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236875)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:02 AM
Author: filthy gold volcanic crater electric furnace

Theres no such thing as easy sex or romance in 2022. That was a historical anomaly from like 2012 to 2016 akin to 7% savings account interest. I dont think youve missed much if you “bowed out” years ago

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236877)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:03 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

eh maybe. seems like other people aren't quite as lonely. can't really meet people in bars anymore, for instance. assume they're up to something.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236881)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:05 AM
Author: filthy gold volcanic crater electric furnace

I think its fairly naive to assume theyre all having hot sex on a beach these days. Life isnt a porno film.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236884)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:06 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

agreed. to be fair, i'm thinking moreso short flings you know are going to end.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236886)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:07 AM
Author: Floppy casino

This. These days height is beauty and height is rare. 6’4 is something that’s now considered normal, whereas in 2021 it was a treat. Women can treat themselves to a 6’5-6’7 guy simply by opening their instagram.

5’11? Hahahahah

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236887)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:09 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

do you see the problem with instagram being the way people meet?

also yeah i'm short by modern standards, painfully aware.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236888)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:13 AM
Author: Claret hall



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236891)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 7:26 AM
Author: Floppy casino



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237033)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 9:40 AM
Author: Soul-stirring poppy nursing home

Ljl at 6’7 pulling chicks. Today you gotta be a 7 footer to even have a chance.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237226)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 2:57 PM
Author: frozen pale school

can confirm

source: am 6'9

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45239221)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:02 PM
Author: marvelous forum party of the first part



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45239765)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:02 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

perhaps why i'm so mean to gjr is that i get it all, on some level.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236878)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 6:39 AM
Author: Nofapping Pearl Theatre Generalized Bond



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236965)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:05 AM
Author: lemon misunderstood den

Find God and reject Worldly pleasures

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236885)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:09 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

paul tells us to be celibate if we can, but to be wed and lawful if we can't.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236889)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:16 AM
Author: lemon misunderstood den

So find marriage track gf

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236894)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:17 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

Little late in the day

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236896)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:27 AM
Author: ruddy location

mid 30's is not even close to too late...

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236902)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 5:28 AM
Author: filthy gold volcanic crater electric furnace

But 2022 is

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236903)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 6:44 AM
Author: 180 toilet seat trump supporter

Sounds shitty.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45236970)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 7:19 AM
Author: Gaped Rehab Blood Rage

You are a kind of mirror image of GJR --- she makes a vice of virtue, you virtue vice, and you seem to be headed to the same place.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237018)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 8:37 AM
Author: maroon corner depressive

Just occurred to me last night. Fuck.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237093)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 1:58 PM
Author: narrow-minded home indirect expression

you can save each other.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45238914)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 2:45 PM
Author: Gaped Rehab Blood Rage



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45239150)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 2:45 PM
Author: Gaped Rehab Blood Rage



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45239152)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:05 PM
Author: marvelous forum party of the first part



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45239788)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:06 PM
Author: galvanic piazza



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45239800)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 7:29 AM
Author: cyan temple new version

Go to Thailand

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237039)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 7:29 AM
Author: galvanic piazza

It's not too late

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237042)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 9:25 AM
Author: motley crystalline french chef

Pussy is pussy, you're not missing out on much.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237191)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 10:14 AM
Author: galvanic piazza

is it sinful if i hook lex up with debacherous art hoes, i.e. tempting a virtuous man off the good path? or is it a bro helping out a bro?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237376)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 10:33 AM
Author: motley crystalline french chef

No, it's not sinful. An endless stream of BPD art hoes licking and sucking lex's PhD meatstick is more likely to make him closer to God than anything else.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237520)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 1:52 PM
Author: galvanic piazza

This seems like sarcasm but I do think it'll help

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45238881)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:03 PM
Author: marvelous forum party of the first part

tinder/bumble in their heyday were different. things were different. WE were different.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45239779)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 9:46 AM
Author: multi-colored range

Lex thread

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237242)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 10:37 AM
Author: Odious rigor



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237552)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 9:47 AM
Author: stirring indian lodge international law enforcement agency



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5200323&forum_id=2#45237254)



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Date: September 27th, 2022 9:48 AM
Author: rough-skinned translucent center

"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" Who Removed His Penis and Balls

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Simon Davis

10/16/14 11:10AM

Filed to: INTERVIEWS

In 1994, a South Florida man who goes by the name Gelding was surgically castrated. In 2011, he had his penis removed as well. He's a "nullo": A cisgender man who removes his external genitalia completely as a form of body modification, and he recently agreed to answer our questions—from "why?" to "what do balls taste like?"

Gelding is a nudist and describes himself as a submissive bear. Apart from his desire to use a pseudonym, he let it all hang out (so to speak) when I reached out to him and graciously answered every question I had.

Is nullo your preferred term to describe yourself and others like you who are castrated and have removed their penis?

Yes, the reason that we use that it is not transgender. It's simply nullification of what you've got. A friend of mine Mack in San Francisco likes to use the term "mascunull", because I remain as masculine as they come with fur and so forth. But I no longer have the parts.

What are some misconceptions people have about nullos?

A few men don't know their own physiology to the point where they think if they lose their balls they can't come any more. And that's false. If you look at the physiology you see that the fluids are made by the seminal vesicles and the prostate. Very little of the fluid and the content is produced in the testes. I still unload.

But the active ingredient for impregnating someone isn't there.

Right.

Do you get a lot of people who think you're trying to become a woman?

Absolutely. And it's mostly the medical profession who sees the sexes as either male or female. And anyone who wants to alter any part of that is in some way suffering from gender dysphoria. They don't like themselves for some reason and they want to change gender. And that's absolutely false.

It's not a dysphoria. I see it in the positive way of working toward something, rather than away from something. Many of the guys instead of putting a negative feel on it see it as a positive. Being castrated is a positive to them. Rather than removing something that they dislike, they are moving in the direction that they want. I went through a long set of psychological evaluation sessions with a psychologist here in town, because that was necessary in order to have the penis removed.

You've previously discussed your 1994 castration. However, I didn't find anything on your penis removal in 2011. Can you talk about that?

I knew I was uncomfortable in having frankly large male parts. I would quite often sit on my own balls because they were loose unless I wore something tight and held them in I would sit on them and squash them. That got me into trouble playing soccer in college when they forced us to wear these hard plastic cups. What happened was I fell on a guy's upright knee with the weight of another player behind me, so two of us fell on the knee. The knee happened to hit the middle of the plastic cup and imploded and tore me up. I was severely injured.

The doctor saved everything but over a period of time the nerves gave me some problems and I had aches in my testicles all the time. When I was in the military service they tried doing a varicose vein removal but that didn't help, it just made matters worse. They thought I was suffering from varicose veins. So after leaving the service I had them removed. And that removed that little problem but I still had the nerve sensations in the penis which woke me up at night. So I could get erect, but it was painful.

So I talked with my urologist and he said the only treatment for that was to make it numb, which is very dangerous because if you make something like that numb then you don't know if it's infected for some reason. Or remove it, but to do that he needs to cover his ass and asked for a psychological evaluation. And my own doctor is a professor at Nova Southeastern University here in. She is the most brilliant doctor I've ever met. So, I asked her about this problem and she was very forthright and said "well, we'll have to treat you". She didn't consider it something that was wrong with me, she said "we have to investigate." I went to see a psychiatrist and he spent a good 90 minutes with me and said "yes, I have just the person that can work with you." So the psychologist did a battery of personality tests and said "you're perfectly fine, your only problem is that you've got these physical problems which work on your nerves." And I said "yeah." And he said "it also works with your personality" because I'm a gay submissive and I always have been and it wasn't working right. So in order to to fix it I worked toward a goal of having things removed. And that was it. I'm working in a positive way to solve my own personal problem.

But was castration something you were contemplating prior to the injury?

Yes. For whatever reason I was always embarrassed by the size of what I had. It didn't fit my personality.

Do you remember when you the fantasy to remove your testicles first occurred?

I had a baby face in high school, there was one of these bullies and he said "you have a man's equipment but you're still a boy" and he squeezed my balls in the shower. He was on the football team, I was on the soccer team showering together and he said "you shouldn't have such big equipment" so he squeezed my balls and at that point it was just a fantasy for me. So how about getting rid of them for some reason?

When did it go from fantasy to aspiration?

It became a fetish thing where I would do sort of more self destructive things with them like putting rubber bands around them and needles through the balls and whatnot. It's a progression which a lot of guys go through. It's something that works on them and they say "Well, how about if we just have them off? Then I won't be bothered by this constant urge to hurt them". And this is where a psychologist gets into the dysphoria. It's very difficult to distinguish whether it's a dislike for something or instead you're working towards something else. I always thought when I was on the beach—I was also on the swim team—and we had Speedos, it was difficult to pack everything in frankly. I would be embarrassed and everybody was looking and here I am and I've got the biggest package and I'm not the biggest guy and I got a whole lot of looks from everybody.

I had a big dick, it got damaged and I was a bottom. I didn't want to use it, I got pushed into using it, I had to take all sorts of medications and was tired of being somebody else's tool.

Broadly speaking, how can someone know that being a nullo is something they actually want to go through with as opposed to something they fantasize about?

That's something really for a psychologist to answer, but in talking to all the guys that I've been talking with, they try to come up with all sorts of different rationalizations to justify it. In my case, my medical situation really didn't justify it because I was just uncomfortable with what I had. It wasn't medically necessary. But I felt that I would be much more comfortable having the issues of having the sensation but not being able to use it well. It was something like a guy having a useless appendage and it's something he has to carry around, and it becomes baggage after a while.

If someone starts/botches the process on their own, what would you recommend they do? Should people use a cover story to avoid getting in trouble?

No. Go to the emergency room. Today, they have been exposed to a lot more of the literature out there than they were 20 years ago. They're not going to be institutionalized. I mean years ago they used to institutionalize guys that were gay.

How would you say the breakdown is between gay and straight men for nullos?

I would have to say it's mostly gays. I don't know of a straight guy who became a nullo.

You had said in a previous interview that for castrations it's about a two to one for gay to straight men that decide to do it.

I've heard of a couple of straight guys who decided that they were making too many babies so they had their balls off so they could take testosterone and continue. I know quite a few bodybuilders both gay and straight whose testes have shrunk because of the steroids they are taking which are bad for their health. So they got castrated and now they're on medically injected testosterone which is good for them. It's not as harmful as oral steroids are or some of the other shit that they're pumping into themselves.

How would you recommend people do their penectomy and castration?

In the last couple of years, my friend Mack from San Francisco ran into Dr. Crane from Brownstein & Crane and he met him, and I don't know how the two of them had the discussion, and then I had a phone interview with Dr. Crane and I explained my situation with him and now Dr. Crane is no longer doing just transgender type of procedures but [also] genital modifications.

So in a way, you educated him.

The protocol that the doctors use for transgender people is called the Harry Benjamin protocol. So for example Dr. Reed in Miami, before you go to his clinic you have to take female hormones for six months and show some development of breasts and whatnot, some feminine characteristics before he will deal with you. And why do that when you simply want to get the genitals removed?

If anything, wouldn't additional testosterone be what you'd need after castration?

Men who get castrated, they do get depressed if they don't start fairly right away on testosterone. Because the falling hormone causes hot flashes first of all, and then the loss of libido. You lose all interest in sex and everything else.

Are there any changes that occur to the body as a result?

Body changes are minimal really. If you lose your balls, you won't lose all your hair.

What about voice? Is that a myth?

Voice doesn't change, no. The larynx is a hard tissue, and the voice box and everything else is a hard tissue. But the timbre of your voice is a factor of the larynx. I sang in the college choir, I know about these things.

One thing I noticed while reading testimonials is that many people seem to try their hand at castration and penectomy but then go to the doctor only if it goes wrong. How much of this would you say is due to the medical profession's reluctance to remove healthy body parts and how much is due to people's general fear of discussing this type of thing with their doctor or therapist?

You know about the Hippocratic oath right? "First do no harm". They have to be convinced that what they are doing is in fact an improvement on your health. Which is why the surgeon is requesting a psychological evaluation. And the psychologist comes back and says "yeah, he's going to be uncomfortable where he is, he's going to be more improved, better mood, better this, better that" and so forth. So from a totality point of view, it's going to get better after he gets modified.

And let me tell you my mood has improved dramatically since going nullo. I don't miss the baggage. I don't miss the fact that I get into sex with a guy, he expects me to perform in some ways, now he doesn't have that expectation. In fact, quite a few guys find it very arousing that they don't have to have that distraction.

Are there other benefits?

Another thing is, guys who are aroused by my situation are very aroused. I've got some guys who are pursuing me a lot. And they just like this idea, because there's nothing there to be in the way. Face to face fucking is very pleasurable. And when they're doing that I actually wet their stomachs with my fluids. And this one guy, he likes to go down on me. He's a bi guy and he said he does this with his girlfriend so he goes down there and starts licking me. And he just loves that idea. He loves the idea that I have a hairy chest and what is to him a very tiny vagina that he can't fuck but he can lick and he can enjoy being the male role. I've even got a straight guy here in town who likes to fuck me because I don't have any male genitals and he doesn't feel threatened by that.

Are there any downsides?

One of the most obvious cons is I have to sit to pee, or I have to use one of these female urination devices. It's an odd funnel shaped device that you can use if there's only a men's urinal. Also, some times I get urinary tract infections. There's a shorter path to the bladder through what I've got now. So I've got to be very careful and keep it clean. I can't get guy fingering me down there because it's the inside of the urethra so it's sensitive.

Do you ever get "phantom dick" syndrome when you are reaching for it out of habit?

A lot of the nerves are bundled on the base of the penis where most of the sensation comes from. It's not along the length of penis but on the base of the penis is where most of the sensations are. And I wake up in the morning with a feeling that I have a big dick that's erect.

In your experience, what percentage of castrations are done by non-medical professionals? How about penectomies? What are the safety risks for each? Would you say one is more difficult than the other for a layman?

I would above three quarters [by non-medical professionals]. And that number is lower than say twenty years ago. There are not as many today.

Which are not as many?

The amateur cutters. There are a lot of wannabes that are successful that manage to stay below the radar of the authorities because they run into trouble because of their lack of skill. Because if you mess up there are problems there. But if you're very careful in choosing the men you work with so that you have very low risk involved, which is age (you don't do old men), you don't do very overweight men, you don't do men who smoke, who don't take drugs and anything else. If you take these fairly low-risk guys and you do it well, then there won't be any problems. Once these guys get castrated, most of them simply become very private and they don't brag about things. They sort of withdraw from pursuing anything else because they've reached their goal.

So is the the percentage of amateur cutters lower today due to more people with medical training performing castrations?

Yes. They are finding that there is a living in this if they do it among other things.

How about with penectomies? I would imagine (and hope!) there's fewer amateurs performing these.

Almost all of them are done by medical professionals. That's tricky, yeah. More tricky. It's sort of major surgery and it's been done by some amateurs. They're fairly good with their surgical techniques. I was actually at one and the guy did a fairly good job but it took a long time and it was a very involved, very slow process. I've heard of only three or four done by cutters in the past and they have left active participation in this.

When you do a penectomy you have to re-route the urethra, yes?

Yes, what I did with this is I knew where I was going with this in 1999 and I contacted my urologist in Hollywood [Florida], an old guy who was just about to retire and I talked to him very carefully and said "in the future I'm going to want the penis removed". And he said "OK, we can do a urethral relocation in the base of the penis".

So how do things like ejaculation and urination work when you've rerouted the urethra and no longer use the penis for them?

With ejaculation, just before you reach the peak, all the fluid is there at the base of the penis, and right before orgasm happens it's the urethra that acts like a rail gun and expels the semen. So when you don't use the penis, there's no force behind it. It just flows out.

What happens to the body parts after removal?

Quite a few [cutters] collect them. They preserve them, they put them in jars. One guy embedded his in plastic and now it's an ornament somewhere. This typically happens when you're in a master/slave dominant/submissive relationship and the submissive gives up his balls to his partner for keepsake. And then you get into this S&M thing where the dominant partner controls and regulates the libido of the submissive. Especially if the submissive is on say androgel where the turnaround time from full sexiness to limp dick is about on the order of a week. The reaction time for the transdermal is very fast. Whereas the injections wear off after two to three weeks. The half life of the testosterone I'm taking is eight days.

You mentioned consumption of body parts in another interview. Is that for real?

It is for real, yes. Some guys do that. Think about the Testy Festy, where they go there and every year there they have concentration of people who are into eating sheep and bull nuts and rocky mountain oysters. I know a few cutters that don't charge anything for their work, the only charge they have is that they get the nuts afterwards.

Is this something that you've tasted?

Yes, as a matter of fact they do taste a little like chicken. Actually I would have to say they taste as much like chicken as they do roast pork. But it all depends on how you cook them. If you cook them in salted butter then they might be saltier than they might otherwise be.

How do you like them cooked?

I went to a cutter's place and he was having an event where he cut a number of guys and I was assisting him there. And what I did is I cooked them up in some butter with some mushrooms. Quite good with a nice red merlot wine.

Cheers to that, Gelding.

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Date: September 27th, 2022 2:58 PM
Author: Plum Spot

Lmao Jesus Christ dude

Why are you so extremely online if you’re actually an extrovert who wants to be around other people so much? I’m not saying that’s a bad thing, I’m just saying you need to think a little harder about what kind of person you are and what you should be doing with your life

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Date: September 27th, 2022 3:00 PM
Author: maroon corner depressive

i'm pretty lost man. first step is figuring out how i got here.

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Date: September 27th, 2022 3:33 PM
Author: Plum Spot

also you need to get over being so hung up on women and getting validation from women. women are just not very important and you should not spend so much time worrying about them

if you really want a gf, then approach women and ask them out on dates. if not, then don't fuckin worry about it

if you're hurting for sexual validation from women, then unironically go on a sex tourism trip to asia and fuck enough of them that this kind of stuff is no longer a hang-up for you

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Date: September 27th, 2022 3:51 PM
Author: maroon corner depressive

I really like women and have no idea how to navigate modern dating where you don't just meet someone through friends or go to a bar. It's really faggy and I feel duly ashamed.

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Date: September 27th, 2022 4:01 PM
Author: Plum Spot

you just ask women out irl. it's not that hard

figure out what kind of women you like (or what kind of women like you - this is way more important) and go to places where those kind of women are, talk to them, and ask them out

it's really not that hard in the current year to date successfully. we all complain about women therapeutically but it's super fucking easy to identify the shitty ones and avoid those. you just gotta ask women a bunch until you find one you like and who likes you



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Date: September 27th, 2022 3:00 PM
Author: canary shitlib

“Swinging like a helpless branch in the wind of an uncharted moral wilderness, you dare not fully to be evil or fully to live. When you are honest, you feel the resentment of a sucker; when you cheat, you feel terror and shame. When you are happy, your joy is diluted by guilt; when you suffer, your pain is augmented by the feeling that pain is your natural state. You pity the men you admire, you believe they are doomed to fail; you envy the men you hate, you believe they are the masters of existence. You feel disarmed when you come up against a scoundrel: you believe that evil is bound to win, since the moral is the impotent, the impractical.

“Morality, to you, is a phantom scarecrow made of duty, of boredom, of punishment, of pain, a cross-breed between the first school-teacher of your past and the tax collector of your present, a scarecrow standing in a barren field, waving a stick to chase away your pleasures—and pleasure, to you, is a liquor-soggy brain, a mindless slut, the stupor of a moron who stakes his cash on some animals’ race, since pleasure cannot be moral.

“If you identify your actual belief, you will find a triple damnation—of yourself, of life, of virtue—in the grotesque conclusion you have reached: you believe that morality is a necessary evil.

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Date: September 27th, 2022 3:52 PM
Author: Sienna yarmulke

we're just getting started

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