benzo is maybe a 1.5, tsinah a 3?

10 = gatormo/CLSG world is your oyster

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744697)

that's not the issue

i hate this clown world every day, it's only going to get worse from here too

i have years invested in a career i hated. trying desperately to get out with minimal success thus far

no romantic prospects with exception of one guy who i'm too afraid to talk to half the time

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42745279)

but comfortable at work, have seniority and obedient juniors who do my bidding, skinny girls almost half my age still fuck me on first meet off apps, look and feel healthy af

edit revising down to 4.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744710)

what's wrong, man?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744747)

I've saved a good amount of money but nothing close to being able to retire even frugally. Can't imagine doing accruals for another 10 years.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744752)

remember that life very well

running the same journal entries month after month, same reports, same spreadsheets

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744757)

i'm trying to launch a business now. it's my ticket out

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744781)

the biz is not making much $$ so far, but i'll keep at it.

yea lifting weights for me is essential

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744796)

they were the worst

at least i worked at a mid-size company where i was exposed to more areas of the balance sheet though. that's the primary reason i was never interested in working in an accounting dept for a very large corp - you are essentially siloed

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744792)

the thought alone would make me want to jump off a bridge

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744807)

i just quit

it was a combination of a) the extreme repetitive, boring nature of the work we do, and b) the extreme constant level of detail orientation that's required to do it

like as i was doing my monthly reports or journal entries, i would check (and check, and re-check) my work, always thinking i had made a mistake. even when i posted entries in the system i was terrified i had made a mistake somewhere. accounting isn't complex, but precision is required, and i think it is a field that lends itself to this type of overthinking, paranoid, OCD-like behavior

i would think about my work when not at work, too...most often thinking i had made a mistake somewhere or that i fucked something up

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744912)

i was never able to find any though - do you know of anything even close to this for us?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744814)

and sure, will do.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744921)

Dramatic improvement over three years ago.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744743)

So that was like a 2, maybe 2.5.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42745042)

I’m realizing I’m a defective human.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744852)

things can always improve, but i would have to think hard to come up with ways in which they could for me (besides obviously what is going on w the world atm).

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744801)

i dont have fuck you networth yet (it's at ~5M, so more than enough to be comfortable), but because im my own boss im uncancellable, dont have to worry about someone forcing me to take vaxx, hr bullshit etc.

5k sq feet 180 house on almost 2 acres of land in one of nicest suburbs of a large blue city.

loving, doting, feminine SAHM wife, who's an easy objective 8.5, but subjective 10. two great kids.

best place ive been in spiritually my whole life.

what could improve: health a bit, some recently recurring pain from old injuries from college. most hs/college friends live in other states (most on other coast), would be 180 if they were closer.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42745130)

I’m endlessly trying to figure out ways to leave it and do something else, but there is always a complication. I was on the path to doing something different last year and then my wife had a miscarriage and the ensuing medical complications derailed the opportunity. Opportunities tend to come in cycles, so when you miss one, you’re stuck waiting for another year for the opportunity to open back up.

My life is definitely recoverable to something much higher than a 2, but it just feels like so much work, and getting past the gatekeepers into a new profession is not guaranteed. Every year I get older, the more difficult it becomes. A kid is on the way again; the wife wants stability; being married limits the ability to move geographically to pursue opportunities; the time in my current industry makes the argument for moving to something else more difficult to make to other people; etc.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744933)

ugh, i hear you/feel you man

i have never understood the people (on this board included) who say things like "oh even if you hate/despise your job, just find meaning in other pursuits and you can have a happy life"

like, no...does not compute

you are working these jobs for 8-10 hours a day. if you find it utterly soul sucking/destroying, it's hard to muster up enough energy to get out of bed every morning, i'm sorry

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42744950)

and i always thought investment banking was the holy grail...

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42745035)

Then I look out the window and see the yard maintenance crew mowing the lawn and I think to myself, “if only I had the time to mow my own yard and be outside in the sun.”

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42745538)

You’ve pushed so hard to get here, you can’t throw it all away.

There is always a reason to suck it up for just one more year.

Etc.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42745043)

i need to get my energy levels up so i can utilize my free time more productively and break out of my rut.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42745014)

Did you randomly impregnate different women over the years?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42745201)

I work a "9 to 5" job but I just want to be rich and not have to work anymore. Want to travel and live abroad like RSF.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4872911&forum_id=2#42745543)