Date: January 29th, 2023 11:13 AM
Author: Odious Unhinged Kitty Cat Ticket Booth
I'll be entirely honest. I come from a scarcity mindset. My whole life it's been like things have been taken away from me. Doors closed in my face. Growing up, I didn't have many friends. I may have led up the German Club, and I may have dated this girl Meredith who was VP of the German Club, but it was a superficial relationship. We liked German more than we liked each other I think. She also liked Bill O'Reilly a lot (back when the Factor was a new show) and we would go up to her room in her parents massive house and listen to Bob Dylan and watch Bill O'Reilly. She seemed so cool at the time.
As my life progressed, I got better at making friends. Maybe I was a late bloomer to some extent. But I had my bumps along the road. I got thrown out of my first college, for example. Then I graduated from the school I wound up at. I worked at a sandwich shop. Everyone there called me a little intense, but by spring semester, they had started to invite me over to their parties and whatever. So I suppose that was a success.
Then I moved across the country at 19 years old with everything I owned stuffed in the back of a GMC Jimmy. I basically abandoned my family (because they abandoned me first) and it was lonely at times, then came law school, and maybe I was a little weird in law school. I don't remember any of those people anyway.
But the point of this narrative is that by the time I got out of law school and started making money, my mindset was that I have to save absolutely as much as possible and I can never afford to buy anything particularly nice.
That's worked to an extent, but now I see with my family that I really need to put it into gear and start earning to provide them the life that they deserve. I'm not the only one on this ship anymore.
It's scary. The economy is scary. Circumstances are scary. There's always the prospect of failure.
But you know what? I think that maybe I have finally woken up and that now is my opportunity to rise above my puerile fears and face the world unencumbered by the vacilliations of youth.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5280042&forum_id=2#45857877)