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-Lies about having a wife and land -Can't or won't clear th...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
evidence that kike?
Violent Exciting Yarmulke Tanning Salon
  03/26/23
Search "FLW", read FLW posts, interact with FLW
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
To be fair, - Unfathomably thin-skinned faggot - Holds...
Startling purple hospital
  03/26/23
ty
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
this post is an excellent example of all three bullet points...
Light deer antler
  03/26/23
To be fair, Thanks, FLW!
Startling purple hospital
  03/26/23
Sup Frank
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
This is obviously all CR but you’re both great posters...
confused incel
  03/27/23
he sounds 180 unlike OP
Seedy canary trailer park tank
  03/26/23
-Alt abuser, Ty
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" ...
Fragrant fishy step-uncle's house pistol
  03/27/23
I'd love to contribute but you've nailed it
thriller kitty queen of the night
  03/26/23
these are the broad strokes
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
He literally went to Berkeley UG
Vengeful bateful ratface
  03/26/23
LJL
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
...
offensive toilet seat
  03/27/23
And unbelievably proud of it
confused incel
  03/27/23
...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
There’s probably some more, I would bet
floppy cowardly immigrant
  03/26/23
yes I’m hoping the list can be made exhaustive
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
just dont bet with FLW because he wont pay up
soggy carmine chapel mad cow disease
  03/26/23
Added
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
Sounds like you are just mad that he's fucking Karen
excitant glassy meetinghouse
  03/26/23
something tells me OP hasn't had a lot of sex in the last 5 ...
Seedy canary trailer park tank
  03/26/23
"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" ...
Fragrant fishy step-uncle's house pistol
  03/27/23
I definitely agree that he’s fucking Karen. In fact, I...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
you already strongly implied it here: "-White knight...
excitant glassy meetinghouse
  03/26/23
I’m allowing both the general and the specific. I&rsqu...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
you should probably add another category re how he needs Kar...
excitant glassy meetinghouse
  03/27/23
ty
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
another sub topic, he's in a legit online cyber relationship...
Geriatric hilarious faggotry
  03/27/23
I think “Fucks (simps for) Karen” covers it. I c...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
likelihood that OP = TBF?
iridescent mind-boggling antidepressant drug range
  03/26/23
100%
excitant glassy meetinghouse
  03/26/23
ShareBlue desperately sending out their defense troops to jo...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/26/23
but you are TBF right? I mean he just showed up ITT
excitant glassy meetinghouse
  03/27/23
To be fair, FLW is a huge faggot
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
...
Startling purple hospital
  03/27/23
To be fair, (Bluesmoke)
Startling purple hospital
  03/27/23
you are such a pathetic freak. we did one of these threads ...
bat shit crazy cracking library
  03/27/23
To be fair, Damn babe you seem mad, everything OK with yo...
Startling purple hospital
  03/27/23
The list should be ordered by importance, it's clearly not.
Cerise fantasy-prone partner
  03/27/23
We’re not done adding to it
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
great job "stepping up" to FLW you little bitch (b...
bat shit crazy cracking library
  03/27/23
*pencils in citation next “simps for Karen” on l...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
citation is misplaced, should be placed after "Allows K...
excitant glassy meetinghouse
  03/27/23
I appreciate your legal eagle eye.
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
When did the FLW fucking Karen thing begin? There’s...
tantric plaza ceo
  03/27/23
To be fair, You mean there's absolutely no way that a tal...
Startling purple hospital
  03/27/23
2+2=10
tantric plaza ceo
  03/27/23
There are receipts.
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
...
Startling purple hospital
  03/27/23
...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
I found it shocking too, but if you do some searches it's ea...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
where are all the obvious alts and pumos that normally follo...
thriller kitty queen of the night
  03/27/23
He likes to start his own threads for that. He wants to crea...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
he likes to wait for the heat to die down and then will star...
thriller kitty queen of the night
  03/27/23
I know he does that. He is a weak, low-testosterone Jewish m...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
yeah, you're 100% correct. ive tried to avoid it many times ...
thriller kitty queen of the night
  03/27/23
Onwards.
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
why is this fantasy i've constructed not materializing befor...
sienna domesticated digit ratio potus
  03/27/23
Stay out of this skippy, you're one of his biggest butt boys...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
He retired from 6 months because he couldn’t pay a $10...
Dull Clown Trust Fund
  03/27/23
He likely has the money and Jew'd him out of the bet, but I ...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
Fan of FLW but this was unforgivable imo
confused incel
  03/27/23
bet welching is the most bitchmade shit a man can do and im ...
thriller kitty queen of the night
  03/27/23
To be fair, He's a BIG FAN of CALLING ME OUT for not reti...
Startling purple hospital
  03/27/23
"Is it more honorable to take an L and show contrition,...
thriller kitty queen of the night
  03/27/23
...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
Seek help
Seedy canary trailer park tank
  03/27/23
"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" ...
Fragrant fishy step-uncle's house pistol
  03/27/23
Sup Frank
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
To be fair, Thanks, FLW!
Startling purple hospital
  03/27/23
We've got a great list going so far, but I'd like to potenti...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23
The delicious part of this is that he can't respond to anyth...
crystalline exhilarant stage
  03/27/23


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Date: March 26th, 2023 6:55 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

-Lies about having a wife and land

-Can't or won't clear the land that he doesn't own

-Virus badmo

-Obnoxiously invested in the Ukraine war

-White knights for femposters

-Aligns with bort libs like EPAH, Karen etc.

-Spent many years living in California

-Would rather live around niggers than spics

-Produces zero board content

-Armchair critic

-Legitimately unintelligent (incapable of long-form analysis)

-KIKE

-Welches on bets

-Uses alts to astroturf his dogshit opinions

-Unfathomably thin-skinned faggot

-Holds endless grudges like a woman (but even worse)

-Smarmy little ultra-sarcastic feminine fuck

-Fucks (simps for) Karen

-Allows Karen to fight his battles for him (flame wars)

-Low Testosterone

Please post more as you think of them.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100394)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 6:56 PM
Author: Violent Exciting Yarmulke Tanning Salon

evidence that kike?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100398)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 7:00 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

Search "FLW", read FLW posts, interact with FLW

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100412)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 7:00 PM
Author: Startling purple hospital

To be fair,

- Unfathomably thin-skinned faggot

- Holds endless grudges like a woman (but even worse)

- Smarmy little ultra-sarcastic feminine fuck

In before "you're describing yourself retard" yes I know I'm also a huge fag and that makes me an "expert" in 2023

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100416)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 7:18 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

ty

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100522)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:50 PM
Author: Light deer antler

this post is an excellent example of all three bullet points. you are correct, the degree to which you exemplify these traits far exceeds that of FLW

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101464)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:52 PM
Author: Startling purple hospital

To be fair,

Thanks, FLW!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101478)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 2:40 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

Sup Frank

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46103674)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:12 AM
Author: confused incel

This is obviously all CR but you’re both great posters. Love u fags

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102492)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:50 PM
Author: Seedy canary trailer park tank

he sounds 180 unlike OP

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101460)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:51 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

-Alt abuser, Ty

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101471)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 1:36 PM
Author: Fragrant fishy step-uncle's house pistol

"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" Who Removed His Penis and Balls

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Simon Davis

10/16/14 11:10AM

Filed to: INTERVIEWS

In 1994, a South Florida man who goes by the name Gelding was surgically castrated. In 2011, he had his penis removed as well. He's a "nullo": A cisgender man who removes his external genitalia completely as a form of body modification, and he recently agreed to answer our questions—from "why?" to "what do balls taste like?"

Gelding is a nudist and describes himself as a submissive bear. Apart from his desire to use a pseudonym, he let it all hang out (so to speak) when I reached out to him and graciously answered every question I had.

Is nullo your preferred term to describe yourself and others like you who are castrated and have removed their penis?

Yes, the reason that we use that it is not transgender. It's simply nullification of what you've got. A friend of mine Mack in San Francisco likes to use the term "mascunull", because I remain as masculine as they come with fur and so forth. But I no longer have the parts.

What are some misconceptions people have about nullos?

A few men don't know their own physiology to the point where they think if they lose their balls they can't come any more. And that's false. If you look at the physiology you see that the fluids are made by the seminal vesicles and the prostate. Very little of the fluid and the content is produced in the testes. I still unload.

But the active ingredient for impregnating someone isn't there.

Right.

Do you get a lot of people who think you're trying to become a woman?

Absolutely. And it's mostly the medical profession who sees the sexes as either male or female. And anyone who wants to alter any part of that is in some way suffering from gender dysphoria. They don't like themselves for some reason and they want to change gender. And that's absolutely false.

It's not a dysphoria. I see it in the positive way of working toward something, rather than away from something. Many of the guys instead of putting a negative feel on it see it as a positive. Being castrated is a positive to them. Rather than removing something that they dislike, they are moving in the direction that they want. I went through a long set of psychological evaluation sessions with a psychologist here in town, because that was necessary in order to have the penis removed.

You've previously discussed your 1994 castration. However, I didn't find anything on your penis removal in 2011. Can you talk about that?

I knew I was uncomfortable in having frankly large male parts. I would quite often sit on my own balls because they were loose unless I wore something tight and held them in I would sit on them and squash them. That got me into trouble playing soccer in college when they forced us to wear these hard plastic cups. What happened was I fell on a guy's upright knee with the weight of another player behind me, so two of us fell on the knee. The knee happened to hit the middle of the plastic cup and imploded and tore me up. I was severely injured.

The doctor saved everything but over a period of time the nerves gave me some problems and I had aches in my testicles all the time. When I was in the military service they tried doing a varicose vein removal but that didn't help, it just made matters worse. They thought I was suffering from varicose veins. So after leaving the service I had them removed. And that removed that little problem but I still had the nerve sensations in the penis which woke me up at night. So I could get erect, but it was painful.

So I talked with my urologist and he said the only treatment for that was to make it numb, which is very dangerous because if you make something like that numb then you don't know if it's infected for some reason. Or remove it, but to do that he needs to cover his ass and asked for a psychological evaluation. And my own doctor is a professor at Nova Southeastern University here in. She is the most brilliant doctor I've ever met. So, I asked her about this problem and she was very forthright and said "well, we'll have to treat you". She didn't consider it something that was wrong with me, she said "we have to investigate." I went to see a psychiatrist and he spent a good 90 minutes with me and said "yes, I have just the person that can work with you." So the psychologist did a battery of personality tests and said "you're perfectly fine, your only problem is that you've got these physical problems which work on your nerves." And I said "yeah." And he said "it also works with your personality" because I'm a gay submissive and I always have been and it wasn't working right. So in order to to fix it I worked toward a goal of having things removed. And that was it. I'm working in a positive way to solve my own personal problem.

But was castration something you were contemplating prior to the injury?

Yes. For whatever reason I was always embarrassed by the size of what I had. It didn't fit my personality.

Do you remember when you the fantasy to remove your testicles first occurred?

I had a baby face in high school, there was one of these bullies and he said "you have a man's equipment but you're still a boy" and he squeezed my balls in the shower. He was on the football team, I was on the soccer team showering together and he said "you shouldn't have such big equipment" so he squeezed my balls and at that point it was just a fantasy for me. So how about getting rid of them for some reason?

When did it go from fantasy to aspiration?

It became a fetish thing where I would do sort of more self destructive things with them like putting rubber bands around them and needles through the balls and whatnot. It's a progression which a lot of guys go through. It's something that works on them and they say "Well, how about if we just have them off? Then I won't be bothered by this constant urge to hurt them". And this is where a psychologist gets into the dysphoria. It's very difficult to distinguish whether it's a dislike for something or instead you're working towards something else. I always thought when I was on the beach—I was also on the swim team—and we had Speedos, it was difficult to pack everything in frankly. I would be embarrassed and everybody was looking and here I am and I've got the biggest package and I'm not the biggest guy and I got a whole lot of looks from everybody.

I had a big dick, it got damaged and I was a bottom. I didn't want to use it, I got pushed into using it, I had to take all sorts of medications and was tired of being somebody else's tool.

Broadly speaking, how can someone know that being a nullo is something they actually want to go through with as opposed to something they fantasize about?

That's something really for a psychologist to answer, but in talking to all the guys that I've been talking with, they try to come up with all sorts of different rationalizations to justify it. In my case, my medical situation really didn't justify it because I was just uncomfortable with what I had. It wasn't medically necessary. But I felt that I would be much more comfortable having the issues of having the sensation but not being able to use it well. It was something like a guy having a useless appendage and it's something he has to carry around, and it becomes baggage after a while.

If someone starts/botches the process on their own, what would you recommend they do? Should people use a cover story to avoid getting in trouble?

No. Go to the emergency room. Today, they have been exposed to a lot more of the literature out there than they were 20 years ago. They're not going to be institutionalized. I mean years ago they used to institutionalize guys that were gay.

How would you say the breakdown is between gay and straight men for nullos?

I would have to say it's mostly gays. I don't know of a straight guy who became a nullo.

You had said in a previous interview that for castrations it's about a two to one for gay to straight men that decide to do it.

I've heard of a couple of straight guys who decided that they were making too many babies so they had their balls off so they could take testosterone and continue. I know quite a few bodybuilders both gay and straight whose testes have shrunk because of the steroids they are taking which are bad for their health. So they got castrated and now they're on medically injected testosterone which is good for them. It's not as harmful as oral steroids are or some of the other shit that they're pumping into themselves.

How would you recommend people do their penectomy and castration?

In the last couple of years, my friend Mack from San Francisco ran into Dr. Crane from Brownstein & Crane and he met him, and I don't know how the two of them had the discussion, and then I had a phone interview with Dr. Crane and I explained my situation with him and now Dr. Crane is no longer doing just transgender type of procedures but [also] genital modifications.

So in a way, you educated him.

The protocol that the doctors use for transgender people is called the Harry Benjamin protocol. So for example Dr. Reed in Miami, before you go to his clinic you have to take female hormones for six months and show some development of breasts and whatnot, some feminine characteristics before he will deal with you. And why do that when you simply want to get the genitals removed?

If anything, wouldn't additional testosterone be what you'd need after castration?

Men who get castrated, they do get depressed if they don't start fairly right away on testosterone. Because the falling hormone causes hot flashes first of all, and then the loss of libido. You lose all interest in sex and everything else.

Are there any changes that occur to the body as a result?

Body changes are minimal really. If you lose your balls, you won't lose all your hair.

What about voice? Is that a myth?

Voice doesn't change, no. The larynx is a hard tissue, and the voice box and everything else is a hard tissue. But the timbre of your voice is a factor of the larynx. I sang in the college choir, I know about these things.

One thing I noticed while reading testimonials is that many people seem to try their hand at castration and penectomy but then go to the doctor only if it goes wrong. How much of this would you say is due to the medical profession's reluctance to remove healthy body parts and how much is due to people's general fear of discussing this type of thing with their doctor or therapist?

You know about the Hippocratic oath right? "First do no harm". They have to be convinced that what they are doing is in fact an improvement on your health. Which is why the surgeon is requesting a psychological evaluation. And the psychologist comes back and says "yeah, he's going to be uncomfortable where he is, he's going to be more improved, better mood, better this, better that" and so forth. So from a totality point of view, it's going to get better after he gets modified.

And let me tell you my mood has improved dramatically since going nullo. I don't miss the baggage. I don't miss the fact that I get into sex with a guy, he expects me to perform in some ways, now he doesn't have that expectation. In fact, quite a few guys find it very arousing that they don't have to have that distraction.

Are there other benefits?

Another thing is, guys who are aroused by my situation are very aroused. I've got some guys who are pursuing me a lot. And they just like this idea, because there's nothing there to be in the way. Face to face fucking is very pleasurable. And when they're doing that I actually wet their stomachs with my fluids. And this one guy, he likes to go down on me. He's a bi guy and he said he does this with his girlfriend so he goes down there and starts licking me. And he just loves that idea. He loves the idea that I have a hairy chest and what is to him a very tiny vagina that he can't fuck but he can lick and he can enjoy being the male role. I've even got a straight guy here in town who likes to fuck me because I don't have any male genitals and he doesn't feel threatened by that.

Are there any downsides?

One of the most obvious cons is I have to sit to pee, or I have to use one of these female urination devices. It's an odd funnel shaped device that you can use if there's only a men's urinal. Also, some times I get urinary tract infections. There's a shorter path to the bladder through what I've got now. So I've got to be very careful and keep it clean. I can't get guy fingering me down there because it's the inside of the urethra so it's sensitive.

Do you ever get "phantom dick" syndrome when you are reaching for it out of habit?

A lot of the nerves are bundled on the base of the penis where most of the sensation comes from. It's not along the length of penis but on the base of the penis is where most of the sensations are. And I wake up in the morning with a feeling that I have a big dick that's erect.

In your experience, what percentage of castrations are done by non-medical professionals? How about penectomies? What are the safety risks for each? Would you say one is more difficult than the other for a layman?

I would above three quarters [by non-medical professionals]. And that number is lower than say twenty years ago. There are not as many today.

Which are not as many?

The amateur cutters. There are a lot of wannabes that are successful that manage to stay below the radar of the authorities because they run into trouble because of their lack of skill. Because if you mess up there are problems there. But if you're very careful in choosing the men you work with so that you have very low risk involved, which is age (you don't do old men), you don't do very overweight men, you don't do men who smoke, who don't take drugs and anything else. If you take these fairly low-risk guys and you do it well, then there won't be any problems. Once these guys get castrated, most of them simply become very private and they don't brag about things. They sort of withdraw from pursuing anything else because they've reached their goal.

So is the the percentage of amateur cutters lower today due to more people with medical training performing castrations?

Yes. They are finding that there is a living in this if they do it among other things.

How about with penectomies? I would imagine (and hope!) there's fewer amateurs performing these.

Almost all of them are done by medical professionals. That's tricky, yeah. More tricky. It's sort of major surgery and it's been done by some amateurs. They're fairly good with their surgical techniques. I was actually at one and the guy did a fairly good job but it took a long time and it was a very involved, very slow process. I've heard of only three or four done by cutters in the past and they have left active participation in this.

When you do a penectomy you have to re-route the urethra, yes?

Yes, what I did with this is I knew where I was going with this in 1999 and I contacted my urologist in Hollywood [Florida], an old guy who was just about to retire and I talked to him very carefully and said "in the future I'm going to want the penis removed". And he said "OK, we can do a urethral relocation in the base of the penis".

So how do things like ejaculation and urination work when you've rerouted the urethra and no longer use the penis for them?

With ejaculation, just before you reach the peak, all the fluid is there at the base of the penis, and right before orgasm happens it's the urethra that acts like a rail gun and expels the semen. So when you don't use the penis, there's no force behind it. It just flows out.

What happens to the body parts after removal?

Quite a few [cutters] collect them. They preserve them, they put them in jars. One guy embedded his in plastic and now it's an ornament somewhere. This typically happens when you're in a master/slave dominant/submissive relationship and the submissive gives up his balls to his partner for keepsake. And then you get into this S&M thing where the dominant partner controls and regulates the libido of the submissive. Especially if the submissive is on say androgel where the turnaround time from full sexiness to limp dick is about on the order of a week. The reaction time for the transdermal is very fast. Whereas the injections wear off after two to three weeks. The half life of the testosterone I'm taking is eight days.

You mentioned consumption of body parts in another interview. Is that for real?

It is for real, yes. Some guys do that. Think about the Testy Festy, where they go there and every year there they have concentration of people who are into eating sheep and bull nuts and rocky mountain oysters. I know a few cutters that don't charge anything for their work, the only charge they have is that they get the nuts afterwards.

Is this something that you've tasted?

Yes, as a matter of fact they do taste a little like chicken. Actually I would have to say they taste as much like chicken as they do roast pork. But it all depends on how you cook them. If you cook them in salted butter then they might be saltier than they might otherwise be.

How do you like them cooked?

I went to a cutter's place and he was having an event where he cut a number of guys and I was assisting him there. And what I did is I cooked them up in some butter with some mushrooms. Quite good with a nice red merlot wine.

Cheers to that, Gelding.



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46103381)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 6:58 PM
Author: thriller kitty queen of the night

I'd love to contribute but you've nailed it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100406)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 7:19 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

these are the broad strokes

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100528)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 6:59 PM
Author: Vengeful bateful ratface

He literally went to Berkeley UG

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100410)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 7:19 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

LJL

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100527)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:04 AM
Author: offensive toilet seat



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:13 AM
Author: confused incel

And unbelievably proud of it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102497)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 3:34 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage



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Date: March 26th, 2023 7:00 PM
Author: floppy cowardly immigrant

There’s probably some more, I would

bet

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100415)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 7:19 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

yes I’m hoping the list can be made exhaustive

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46100525)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:48 PM
Author: soggy carmine chapel mad cow disease

just dont bet with FLW because he wont pay up

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101449)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:50 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

Added

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101459)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:51 PM
Author: excitant glassy meetinghouse

Sounds like you are just mad that he's fucking Karen

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101472)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:52 PM
Author: Seedy canary trailer park tank

something tells me OP hasn't had a lot of sex in the last 5 years

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101476)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 1:37 PM
Author: Fragrant fishy step-uncle's house pistol

"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" Who Removed His Penis and Balls

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Simon Davis

10/16/14 11:10AM

Filed to: INTERVIEWS

In 1994, a South Florida man who goes by the name Gelding was surgically castrated. In 2011, he had his penis removed as well. He's a "nullo": A cisgender man who removes his external genitalia completely as a form of body modification, and he recently agreed to answer our questions—from "why?" to "what do balls taste like?"

Gelding is a nudist and describes himself as a submissive bear. Apart from his desire to use a pseudonym, he let it all hang out (so to speak) when I reached out to him and graciously answered every question I had.

Is nullo your preferred term to describe yourself and others like you who are castrated and have removed their penis?

Yes, the reason that we use that it is not transgender. It's simply nullification of what you've got. A friend of mine Mack in San Francisco likes to use the term "mascunull", because I remain as masculine as they come with fur and so forth. But I no longer have the parts.

What are some misconceptions people have about nullos?

A few men don't know their own physiology to the point where they think if they lose their balls they can't come any more. And that's false. If you look at the physiology you see that the fluids are made by the seminal vesicles and the prostate. Very little of the fluid and the content is produced in the testes. I still unload.

But the active ingredient for impregnating someone isn't there.

Right.

Do you get a lot of people who think you're trying to become a woman?

Absolutely. And it's mostly the medical profession who sees the sexes as either male or female. And anyone who wants to alter any part of that is in some way suffering from gender dysphoria. They don't like themselves for some reason and they want to change gender. And that's absolutely false.

It's not a dysphoria. I see it in the positive way of working toward something, rather than away from something. Many of the guys instead of putting a negative feel on it see it as a positive. Being castrated is a positive to them. Rather than removing something that they dislike, they are moving in the direction that they want. I went through a long set of psychological evaluation sessions with a psychologist here in town, because that was necessary in order to have the penis removed.

You've previously discussed your 1994 castration. However, I didn't find anything on your penis removal in 2011. Can you talk about that?

I knew I was uncomfortable in having frankly large male parts. I would quite often sit on my own balls because they were loose unless I wore something tight and held them in I would sit on them and squash them. That got me into trouble playing soccer in college when they forced us to wear these hard plastic cups. What happened was I fell on a guy's upright knee with the weight of another player behind me, so two of us fell on the knee. The knee happened to hit the middle of the plastic cup and imploded and tore me up. I was severely injured.

The doctor saved everything but over a period of time the nerves gave me some problems and I had aches in my testicles all the time. When I was in the military service they tried doing a varicose vein removal but that didn't help, it just made matters worse. They thought I was suffering from varicose veins. So after leaving the service I had them removed. And that removed that little problem but I still had the nerve sensations in the penis which woke me up at night. So I could get erect, but it was painful.

So I talked with my urologist and he said the only treatment for that was to make it numb, which is very dangerous because if you make something like that numb then you don't know if it's infected for some reason. Or remove it, but to do that he needs to cover his ass and asked for a psychological evaluation. And my own doctor is a professor at Nova Southeastern University here in. She is the most brilliant doctor I've ever met. So, I asked her about this problem and she was very forthright and said "well, we'll have to treat you". She didn't consider it something that was wrong with me, she said "we have to investigate." I went to see a psychiatrist and he spent a good 90 minutes with me and said "yes, I have just the person that can work with you." So the psychologist did a battery of personality tests and said "you're perfectly fine, your only problem is that you've got these physical problems which work on your nerves." And I said "yeah." And he said "it also works with your personality" because I'm a gay submissive and I always have been and it wasn't working right. So in order to to fix it I worked toward a goal of having things removed. And that was it. I'm working in a positive way to solve my own personal problem.

But was castration something you were contemplating prior to the injury?

Yes. For whatever reason I was always embarrassed by the size of what I had. It didn't fit my personality.

Do you remember when you the fantasy to remove your testicles first occurred?

I had a baby face in high school, there was one of these bullies and he said "you have a man's equipment but you're still a boy" and he squeezed my balls in the shower. He was on the football team, I was on the soccer team showering together and he said "you shouldn't have such big equipment" so he squeezed my balls and at that point it was just a fantasy for me. So how about getting rid of them for some reason?

When did it go from fantasy to aspiration?

It became a fetish thing where I would do sort of more self destructive things with them like putting rubber bands around them and needles through the balls and whatnot. It's a progression which a lot of guys go through. It's something that works on them and they say "Well, how about if we just have them off? Then I won't be bothered by this constant urge to hurt them". And this is where a psychologist gets into the dysphoria. It's very difficult to distinguish whether it's a dislike for something or instead you're working towards something else. I always thought when I was on the beach—I was also on the swim team—and we had Speedos, it was difficult to pack everything in frankly. I would be embarrassed and everybody was looking and here I am and I've got the biggest package and I'm not the biggest guy and I got a whole lot of looks from everybody.

I had a big dick, it got damaged and I was a bottom. I didn't want to use it, I got pushed into using it, I had to take all sorts of medications and was tired of being somebody else's tool.

Broadly speaking, how can someone know that being a nullo is something they actually want to go through with as opposed to something they fantasize about?

That's something really for a psychologist to answer, but in talking to all the guys that I've been talking with, they try to come up with all sorts of different rationalizations to justify it. In my case, my medical situation really didn't justify it because I was just uncomfortable with what I had. It wasn't medically necessary. But I felt that I would be much more comfortable having the issues of having the sensation but not being able to use it well. It was something like a guy having a useless appendage and it's something he has to carry around, and it becomes baggage after a while.

If someone starts/botches the process on their own, what would you recommend they do? Should people use a cover story to avoid getting in trouble?

No. Go to the emergency room. Today, they have been exposed to a lot more of the literature out there than they were 20 years ago. They're not going to be institutionalized. I mean years ago they used to institutionalize guys that were gay.

How would you say the breakdown is between gay and straight men for nullos?

I would have to say it's mostly gays. I don't know of a straight guy who became a nullo.

You had said in a previous interview that for castrations it's about a two to one for gay to straight men that decide to do it.

I've heard of a couple of straight guys who decided that they were making too many babies so they had their balls off so they could take testosterone and continue. I know quite a few bodybuilders both gay and straight whose testes have shrunk because of the steroids they are taking which are bad for their health. So they got castrated and now they're on medically injected testosterone which is good for them. It's not as harmful as oral steroids are or some of the other shit that they're pumping into themselves.

How would you recommend people do their penectomy and castration?

In the last couple of years, my friend Mack from San Francisco ran into Dr. Crane from Brownstein & Crane and he met him, and I don't know how the two of them had the discussion, and then I had a phone interview with Dr. Crane and I explained my situation with him and now Dr. Crane is no longer doing just transgender type of procedures but [also] genital modifications.

So in a way, you educated him.

The protocol that the doctors use for transgender people is called the Harry Benjamin protocol. So for example Dr. Reed in Miami, before you go to his clinic you have to take female hormones for six months and show some development of breasts and whatnot, some feminine characteristics before he will deal with you. And why do that when you simply want to get the genitals removed?

If anything, wouldn't additional testosterone be what you'd need after castration?

Men who get castrated, they do get depressed if they don't start fairly right away on testosterone. Because the falling hormone causes hot flashes first of all, and then the loss of libido. You lose all interest in sex and everything else.

Are there any changes that occur to the body as a result?

Body changes are minimal really. If you lose your balls, you won't lose all your hair.

What about voice? Is that a myth?

Voice doesn't change, no. The larynx is a hard tissue, and the voice box and everything else is a hard tissue. But the timbre of your voice is a factor of the larynx. I sang in the college choir, I know about these things.

One thing I noticed while reading testimonials is that many people seem to try their hand at castration and penectomy but then go to the doctor only if it goes wrong. How much of this would you say is due to the medical profession's reluctance to remove healthy body parts and how much is due to people's general fear of discussing this type of thing with their doctor or therapist?

You know about the Hippocratic oath right? "First do no harm". They have to be convinced that what they are doing is in fact an improvement on your health. Which is why the surgeon is requesting a psychological evaluation. And the psychologist comes back and says "yeah, he's going to be uncomfortable where he is, he's going to be more improved, better mood, better this, better that" and so forth. So from a totality point of view, it's going to get better after he gets modified.

And let me tell you my mood has improved dramatically since going nullo. I don't miss the baggage. I don't miss the fact that I get into sex with a guy, he expects me to perform in some ways, now he doesn't have that expectation. In fact, quite a few guys find it very arousing that they don't have to have that distraction.

Are there other benefits?

Another thing is, guys who are aroused by my situation are very aroused. I've got some guys who are pursuing me a lot. And they just like this idea, because there's nothing there to be in the way. Face to face fucking is very pleasurable. And when they're doing that I actually wet their stomachs with my fluids. And this one guy, he likes to go down on me. He's a bi guy and he said he does this with his girlfriend so he goes down there and starts licking me. And he just loves that idea. He loves the idea that I have a hairy chest and what is to him a very tiny vagina that he can't fuck but he can lick and he can enjoy being the male role. I've even got a straight guy here in town who likes to fuck me because I don't have any male genitals and he doesn't feel threatened by that.

Are there any downsides?

One of the most obvious cons is I have to sit to pee, or I have to use one of these female urination devices. It's an odd funnel shaped device that you can use if there's only a men's urinal. Also, some times I get urinary tract infections. There's a shorter path to the bladder through what I've got now. So I've got to be very careful and keep it clean. I can't get guy fingering me down there because it's the inside of the urethra so it's sensitive.

Do you ever get "phantom dick" syndrome when you are reaching for it out of habit?

A lot of the nerves are bundled on the base of the penis where most of the sensation comes from. It's not along the length of penis but on the base of the penis is where most of the sensations are. And I wake up in the morning with a feeling that I have a big dick that's erect.

In your experience, what percentage of castrations are done by non-medical professionals? How about penectomies? What are the safety risks for each? Would you say one is more difficult than the other for a layman?

I would above three quarters [by non-medical professionals]. And that number is lower than say twenty years ago. There are not as many today.

Which are not as many?

The amateur cutters. There are a lot of wannabes that are successful that manage to stay below the radar of the authorities because they run into trouble because of their lack of skill. Because if you mess up there are problems there. But if you're very careful in choosing the men you work with so that you have very low risk involved, which is age (you don't do old men), you don't do very overweight men, you don't do men who smoke, who don't take drugs and anything else. If you take these fairly low-risk guys and you do it well, then there won't be any problems. Once these guys get castrated, most of them simply become very private and they don't brag about things. They sort of withdraw from pursuing anything else because they've reached their goal.

So is the the percentage of amateur cutters lower today due to more people with medical training performing castrations?

Yes. They are finding that there is a living in this if they do it among other things.

How about with penectomies? I would imagine (and hope!) there's fewer amateurs performing these.

Almost all of them are done by medical professionals. That's tricky, yeah. More tricky. It's sort of major surgery and it's been done by some amateurs. They're fairly good with their surgical techniques. I was actually at one and the guy did a fairly good job but it took a long time and it was a very involved, very slow process. I've heard of only three or four done by cutters in the past and they have left active participation in this.

When you do a penectomy you have to re-route the urethra, yes?

Yes, what I did with this is I knew where I was going with this in 1999 and I contacted my urologist in Hollywood [Florida], an old guy who was just about to retire and I talked to him very carefully and said "in the future I'm going to want the penis removed". And he said "OK, we can do a urethral relocation in the base of the penis".

So how do things like ejaculation and urination work when you've rerouted the urethra and no longer use the penis for them?

With ejaculation, just before you reach the peak, all the fluid is there at the base of the penis, and right before orgasm happens it's the urethra that acts like a rail gun and expels the semen. So when you don't use the penis, there's no force behind it. It just flows out.

What happens to the body parts after removal?

Quite a few [cutters] collect them. They preserve them, they put them in jars. One guy embedded his in plastic and now it's an ornament somewhere. This typically happens when you're in a master/slave dominant/submissive relationship and the submissive gives up his balls to his partner for keepsake. And then you get into this S&M thing where the dominant partner controls and regulates the libido of the submissive. Especially if the submissive is on say androgel where the turnaround time from full sexiness to limp dick is about on the order of a week. The reaction time for the transdermal is very fast. Whereas the injections wear off after two to three weeks. The half life of the testosterone I'm taking is eight days.

You mentioned consumption of body parts in another interview. Is that for real?

It is for real, yes. Some guys do that. Think about the Testy Festy, where they go there and every year there they have concentration of people who are into eating sheep and bull nuts and rocky mountain oysters. I know a few cutters that don't charge anything for their work, the only charge they have is that they get the nuts afterwards.

Is this something that you've tasted?

Yes, as a matter of fact they do taste a little like chicken. Actually I would have to say they taste as much like chicken as they do roast pork. But it all depends on how you cook them. If you cook them in salted butter then they might be saltier than they might otherwise be.

How do you like them cooked?

I went to a cutter's place and he was having an event where he cut a number of guys and I was assisting him there. And what I did is I cooked them up in some butter with some mushrooms. Quite good with a nice red merlot wine.

Cheers to that, Gelding.



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46103383)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:54 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

I definitely agree that he’s fucking Karen. In fact, I’ll add that to the list as well

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101485)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:55 PM
Author: excitant glassy meetinghouse

you already strongly implied it here:

"-White knights for femposters

-Aligns with bort libs like EPAH, Karen etc."

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101490)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:56 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

I’m allowing both the general and the specific. I’d like the list to be exhaustive.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101498)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:02 AM
Author: excitant glassy meetinghouse

you should probably add another category re how he needs Karen to defend him. He gets in fights with impunity when she's on because he knows she will terrorize his opponents.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101517)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:04 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

ty

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101524)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:06 AM
Author: Geriatric hilarious faggotry

another sub topic, he's in a legit online cyber relationship with Karen which is creepy

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101527)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:07 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

I think “Fucks (simps for) Karen” covers it. I can’t allow this list to become a joke. Future posters are going to need this.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101533)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:53 PM
Author: iridescent mind-boggling antidepressant drug range

likelihood that OP = TBF?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101482)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:55 PM
Author: excitant glassy meetinghouse

100%

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101491)



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Date: March 26th, 2023 11:58 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

ShareBlue desperately sending out their defense troops to join forces with FLW alts rn

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101506)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:01 AM
Author: excitant glassy meetinghouse

but you are TBF right? I mean he just showed up ITT

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101516)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:04 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

To be fair,

FLW is a huge faggot

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101523)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 3:37 AM
Author: Startling purple hospital



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101838)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 3:37 AM
Author: Startling purple hospital

To be fair,

(Bluesmoke)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101840)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 3:38 AM
Author: bat shit crazy cracking library

you are such a pathetic freak. we did one of these threads about you but the sheer size crashed the server

🖕SUCK MY FUCKING DICK🖕

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101842)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 4:20 AM
Author: Startling purple hospital

To be fair,

Damn babe you seem mad, everything OK with your life these days? (Lol)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101877)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:09 AM
Author: Cerise fantasy-prone partner

The list should be ordered by importance, it's clearly not.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101536)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:10 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

We’re not done adding to it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101537)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:59 AM
Author: bat shit crazy cracking library

great job "stepping up" to FLW you little bitch (boi).

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101661)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 1:08 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

*pencils in citation next “simps for Karen” on list*

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101673)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 1:10 AM
Author: excitant glassy meetinghouse

citation is misplaced, should be placed after "Allows Karen to fight his battles for him (flame wars)"

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101678)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 1:13 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

I appreciate your legal eagle eye.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101684)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 4:38 AM
Author: tantric plaza ceo

When did the FLW fucking Karen thing begin?

There’s absolutely no way the likes of FLW would be with her

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101883)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 4:48 AM
Author: Startling purple hospital

To be fair,

You mean there's absolutely no way that a tall, cool, jacked, hot, brilliant, rich, blonde-and-blue-eyed studly goy conservative straight alpha male Chad (rocking 100% pure Finnish genes, trust me he wouldn't lie to a bunch of strangers about something like that on the internet!) who is living his best life driving a badass truck around on an awesome rural dude ranch like "Frank Lloyd Wrong" would ever slum it up with a dumb ugly blown out middle-aged psycho shitlib bitch like Karen?

Well, uhhh..... sit down for this one, brother.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101889)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 5:04 AM
Author: tantric plaza ceo

2+2=10

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46101894)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:48 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

There are receipts.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102620)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:07 PM
Author: Startling purple hospital



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102997)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 8:18 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46105789)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:01 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

I found it shocking too, but if you do some searches it's easily confirmable. She's MAF that people are stepping up to her man.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102438)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:06 AM
Author: thriller kitty queen of the night

where are all the obvious alts and pumos that normally follow flw around bumping and sockpuppeting for him within .2 seconds of his posts? they never seem to show up in threads where known poasters gather around to call him out.

odd case.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102461)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:10 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

He likes to start his own threads for that. He wants to create the illusion of consensus that he's just a chill goy and that everyone that "hates on him" is Jewish or simp crew. Hard to do that when you have dozens of people arguing in thread that you're worthless pond scum. He's truly a terrible poster.

For what it's worth I disavow your "simp crew" (I hate to use terms that he coined, but I believe it is fairly applied here), but I also disavow the sickening white knighting he does by defending femposters against their "attackers" constantly. He may be the biggest beta of them all.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102480)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:13 AM
Author: thriller kitty queen of the night

he likes to wait for the heat to die down and then will start histrionically follow everyone around that participates. he knows if he fights back now he'll lose.

idk why you disavow us, but at least it goes to show were different people and that hate for FLW cuts across everyone. i try to be nice to everyone and have "simped" for SP and EPAH too. i just want to spread KINDNESS.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102501)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:21 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

I know he does that. He is a weak, low-testosterone Jewish man. Unfortunately for him, the list above is immutable no amount of glib shitposting will change it. He should be constantly reminded of this when his posting gets uppity.

The only anecdote for terrible posters like that-which-will-remain-unnamed is attention starvation which you and your crew can't seem to manage. I believe your intentions are good and it is tempting to argue with women, but it is a complete waste of time and actively harmful to this board. FLW and jag want to fuck her which is why they mock the "simp crew" instead of discussing in good faith what I just explained to you. It's a white knight tactic. I do genuinely think they believe they will get pussy from it.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102523)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:25 AM
Author: thriller kitty queen of the night

yeah, you're 100% correct. ive tried to avoid it many times (and am now) but it's difficult to resist when it's shitting up the place for months. but im not making excuses, i failed and shouldn't have been rolling around in the muck, as that is giving them exactly what they want: negative attention and just filling up the bort with even more shit. im trying to be better.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102544)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:33 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

Onwards.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102569)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:34 AM
Author: sienna domesticated digit ratio potus

why is this fantasy i've constructed not materializing before me right now, you might ask

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102574)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:35 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

Stay out of this skippy, you're one of his biggest butt boys. You're making this worse for him.

Reminder: Jag has said in the past that FLW is a "great poster" and that "this board can't afford to drive him off"

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102576)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:56 AM
Author: Dull Clown Trust Fund

He retired from 6 months because he couldn’t pay a $100 bet. He’s basically Benzo financially.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102672)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 10:59 AM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

He likely has the money and Jew'd him out of the bet, but I enjoy the idea of a guy who has unbelievably strong opinions about coffee brewing unable to pay out a $100 debt.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102689)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 11:00 AM
Author: confused incel

Fan of FLW but this was unforgivable imo

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102696)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 11:37 AM
Author: thriller kitty queen of the night

bet welching is the most bitchmade shit a man can do and im stunned he has the temerity to show his face here after that faggotry.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46102881)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:12 PM
Author: Startling purple hospital

To be fair,

He's a BIG FAN of CALLING ME OUT for not retiring after my Trump 2016 prediction failed. "PWNED, FAGGOT!"

Unfortunately, he seems to forget that 1. out of all of the people on this bort he objectively has the least standing to call me out for something like that, and 2. I groveled and made an entire thread asking XO to be relieved from my duty to retire and putting it up to a group vote (where a supermajority said I should stay). I'm not proud of that behavior FWIW, but its a hell of a lot more than "FLW" ever did when he just straight up welched on a bet with lower stakes and then chuckled and told the guy who won to go fuck himself.

... almost like he's a stereotypically neurotic and arrogant kike who is constitutionally incapable of engaging in any form of self-reflection or humility and who thinks he's above it all, anyway, so who even cares what all of those stupid little retarded cattle goy say or think? Almost. Haha.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46103011)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:20 PM
Author: thriller kitty queen of the night

"Is it more honorable to take an L and show contrition, or to deny ever taking an L at all despite it being there for all to see?"

FLW: STFU fag I've never taken an L!

...,..,..: You tell him FLW, you rock!

FLW_Fan_372: We love you FLW!

'"""'"" (oppose bitch bois): Don't let these bitch bois get you down! I've got your back FLW!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46103057)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 12:39 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46103145)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 1:35 PM
Author: Seedy canary trailer park tank

Seek help

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46103378)



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Date: March 27th, 2023 1:36 PM
Author: Fragrant fishy step-uncle's house pistol

"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" Who Removed His Penis and Balls

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Simon Davis

10/16/14 11:10AM

Filed to: INTERVIEWS

In 1994, a South Florida man who goes by the name Gelding was surgically castrated. In 2011, he had his penis removed as well. He's a "nullo": A cisgender man who removes his external genitalia completely as a form of body modification, and he recently agreed to answer our questions—from "why?" to "what do balls taste like?"

Gelding is a nudist and describes himself as a submissive bear. Apart from his desire to use a pseudonym, he let it all hang out (so to speak) when I reached out to him and graciously answered every question I had.

Is nullo your preferred term to describe yourself and others like you who are castrated and have removed their penis?

Yes, the reason that we use that it is not transgender. It's simply nullification of what you've got. A friend of mine Mack in San Francisco likes to use the term "mascunull", because I remain as masculine as they come with fur and so forth. But I no longer have the parts.

What are some misconceptions people have about nullos?

A few men don't know their own physiology to the point where they think if they lose their balls they can't come any more. And that's false. If you look at the physiology you see that the fluids are made by the seminal vesicles and the prostate. Very little of the fluid and the content is produced in the testes. I still unload.

But the active ingredient for impregnating someone isn't there.

Right.

Do you get a lot of people who think you're trying to become a woman?

Absolutely. And it's mostly the medical profession who sees the sexes as either male or female. And anyone who wants to alter any part of that is in some way suffering from gender dysphoria. They don't like themselves for some reason and they want to change gender. And that's absolutely false.

It's not a dysphoria. I see it in the positive way of working toward something, rather than away from something. Many of the guys instead of putting a negative feel on it see it as a positive. Being castrated is a positive to them. Rather than removing something that they dislike, they are moving in the direction that they want. I went through a long set of psychological evaluation sessions with a psychologist here in town, because that was necessary in order to have the penis removed.

You've previously discussed your 1994 castration. However, I didn't find anything on your penis removal in 2011. Can you talk about that?

I knew I was uncomfortable in having frankly large male parts. I would quite often sit on my own balls because they were loose unless I wore something tight and held them in I would sit on them and squash them. That got me into trouble playing soccer in college when they forced us to wear these hard plastic cups. What happened was I fell on a guy's upright knee with the weight of another player behind me, so two of us fell on the knee. The knee happened to hit the middle of the plastic cup and imploded and tore me up. I was severely injured.

The doctor saved everything but over a period of time the nerves gave me some problems and I had aches in my testicles all the time. When I was in the military service they tried doing a varicose vein removal but that didn't help, it just made matters worse. They thought I was suffering from varicose veins. So after leaving the service I had them removed. And that removed that little problem but I still had the nerve sensations in the penis which woke me up at night. So I could get erect, but it was painful.

So I talked with my urologist and he said the only treatment for that was to make it numb, which is very dangerous because if you make something like that numb then you don't know if it's infected for some reason. Or remove it, but to do that he needs to cover his ass and asked for a psychological evaluation. And my own doctor is a professor at Nova Southeastern University here in. She is the most brilliant doctor I've ever met. So, I asked her about this problem and she was very forthright and said "well, we'll have to treat you". She didn't consider it something that was wrong with me, she said "we have to investigate." I went to see a psychiatrist and he spent a good 90 minutes with me and said "yes, I have just the person that can work with you." So the psychologist did a battery of personality tests and said "you're perfectly fine, your only problem is that you've got these physical problems which work on your nerves." And I said "yeah." And he said "it also works with your personality" because I'm a gay submissive and I always have been and it wasn't working right. So in order to to fix it I worked toward a goal of having things removed. And that was it. I'm working in a positive way to solve my own personal problem.

But was castration something you were contemplating prior to the injury?

Yes. For whatever reason I was always embarrassed by the size of what I had. It didn't fit my personality.

Do you remember when you the fantasy to remove your testicles first occurred?

I had a baby face in high school, there was one of these bullies and he said "you have a man's equipment but you're still a boy" and he squeezed my balls in the shower. He was on the football team, I was on the soccer team showering together and he said "you shouldn't have such big equipment" so he squeezed my balls and at that point it was just a fantasy for me. So how about getting rid of them for some reason?

When did it go from fantasy to aspiration?

It became a fetish thing where I would do sort of more self destructive things with them like putting rubber bands around them and needles through the balls and whatnot. It's a progression which a lot of guys go through. It's something that works on them and they say "Well, how about if we just have them off? Then I won't be bothered by this constant urge to hurt them". And this is where a psychologist gets into the dysphoria. It's very difficult to distinguish whether it's a dislike for something or instead you're working towards something else. I always thought when I was on the beach—I was also on the swim team—and we had Speedos, it was difficult to pack everything in frankly. I would be embarrassed and everybody was looking and here I am and I've got the biggest package and I'm not the biggest guy and I got a whole lot of looks from everybody.

I had a big dick, it got damaged and I was a bottom. I didn't want to use it, I got pushed into using it, I had to take all sorts of medications and was tired of being somebody else's tool.

Broadly speaking, how can someone know that being a nullo is something they actually want to go through with as opposed to something they fantasize about?

That's something really for a psychologist to answer, but in talking to all the guys that I've been talking with, they try to come up with all sorts of different rationalizations to justify it. In my case, my medical situation really didn't justify it because I was just uncomfortable with what I had. It wasn't medically necessary. But I felt that I would be much more comfortable having the issues of having the sensation but not being able to use it well. It was something like a guy having a useless appendage and it's something he has to carry around, and it becomes baggage after a while.

If someone starts/botches the process on their own, what would you recommend they do? Should people use a cover story to avoid getting in trouble?

No. Go to the emergency room. Today, they have been exposed to a lot more of the literature out there than they were 20 years ago. They're not going to be institutionalized. I mean years ago they used to institutionalize guys that were gay.

How would you say the breakdown is between gay and straight men for nullos?

I would have to say it's mostly gays. I don't know of a straight guy who became a nullo.

You had said in a previous interview that for castrations it's about a two to one for gay to straight men that decide to do it.

I've heard of a couple of straight guys who decided that they were making too many babies so they had their balls off so they could take testosterone and continue. I know quite a few bodybuilders both gay and straight whose testes have shrunk because of the steroids they are taking which are bad for their health. So they got castrated and now they're on medically injected testosterone which is good for them. It's not as harmful as oral steroids are or some of the other shit that they're pumping into themselves.

How would you recommend people do their penectomy and castration?

In the last couple of years, my friend Mack from San Francisco ran into Dr. Crane from Brownstein & Crane and he met him, and I don't know how the two of them had the discussion, and then I had a phone interview with Dr. Crane and I explained my situation with him and now Dr. Crane is no longer doing just transgender type of procedures but [also] genital modifications.

So in a way, you educated him.

The protocol that the doctors use for transgender people is called the Harry Benjamin protocol. So for example Dr. Reed in Miami, before you go to his clinic you have to take female hormones for six months and show some development of breasts and whatnot, some feminine characteristics before he will deal with you. And why do that when you simply want to get the genitals removed?

If anything, wouldn't additional testosterone be what you'd need after castration?

Men who get castrated, they do get depressed if they don't start fairly right away on testosterone. Because the falling hormone causes hot flashes first of all, and then the loss of libido. You lose all interest in sex and everything else.

Are there any changes that occur to the body as a result?

Body changes are minimal really. If you lose your balls, you won't lose all your hair.

What about voice? Is that a myth?

Voice doesn't change, no. The larynx is a hard tissue, and the voice box and everything else is a hard tissue. But the timbre of your voice is a factor of the larynx. I sang in the college choir, I know about these things.

One thing I noticed while reading testimonials is that many people seem to try their hand at castration and penectomy but then go to the doctor only if it goes wrong. How much of this would you say is due to the medical profession's reluctance to remove healthy body parts and how much is due to people's general fear of discussing this type of thing with their doctor or therapist?

You know about the Hippocratic oath right? "First do no harm". They have to be convinced that what they are doing is in fact an improvement on your health. Which is why the surgeon is requesting a psychological evaluation. And the psychologist comes back and says "yeah, he's going to be uncomfortable where he is, he's going to be more improved, better mood, better this, better that" and so forth. So from a totality point of view, it's going to get better after he gets modified.

And let me tell you my mood has improved dramatically since going nullo. I don't miss the baggage. I don't miss the fact that I get into sex with a guy, he expects me to perform in some ways, now he doesn't have that expectation. In fact, quite a few guys find it very arousing that they don't have to have that distraction.

Are there other benefits?

Another thing is, guys who are aroused by my situation are very aroused. I've got some guys who are pursuing me a lot. And they just like this idea, because there's nothing there to be in the way. Face to face fucking is very pleasurable. And when they're doing that I actually wet their stomachs with my fluids. And this one guy, he likes to go down on me. He's a bi guy and he said he does this with his girlfriend so he goes down there and starts licking me. And he just loves that idea. He loves the idea that I have a hairy chest and what is to him a very tiny vagina that he can't fuck but he can lick and he can enjoy being the male role. I've even got a straight guy here in town who likes to fuck me because I don't have any male genitals and he doesn't feel threatened by that.

Are there any downsides?

One of the most obvious cons is I have to sit to pee, or I have to use one of these female urination devices. It's an odd funnel shaped device that you can use if there's only a men's urinal. Also, some times I get urinary tract infections. There's a shorter path to the bladder through what I've got now. So I've got to be very careful and keep it clean. I can't get guy fingering me down there because it's the inside of the urethra so it's sensitive.

Do you ever get "phantom dick" syndrome when you are reaching for it out of habit?

A lot of the nerves are bundled on the base of the penis where most of the sensation comes from. It's not along the length of penis but on the base of the penis is where most of the sensations are. And I wake up in the morning with a feeling that I have a big dick that's erect.

In your experience, what percentage of castrations are done by non-medical professionals? How about penectomies? What are the safety risks for each? Would you say one is more difficult than the other for a layman?

I would above three quarters [by non-medical professionals]. And that number is lower than say twenty years ago. There are not as many today.

Which are not as many?

The amateur cutters. There are a lot of wannabes that are successful that manage to stay below the radar of the authorities because they run into trouble because of their lack of skill. Because if you mess up there are problems there. But if you're very careful in choosing the men you work with so that you have very low risk involved, which is age (you don't do old men), you don't do very overweight men, you don't do men who smoke, who don't take drugs and anything else. If you take these fairly low-risk guys and you do it well, then there won't be any problems. Once these guys get castrated, most of them simply become very private and they don't brag about things. They sort of withdraw from pursuing anything else because they've reached their goal.

So is the the percentage of amateur cutters lower today due to more people with medical training performing castrations?

Yes. They are finding that there is a living in this if they do it among other things.

How about with penectomies? I would imagine (and hope!) there's fewer amateurs performing these.

Almost all of them are done by medical professionals. That's tricky, yeah. More tricky. It's sort of major surgery and it's been done by some amateurs. They're fairly good with their surgical techniques. I was actually at one and the guy did a fairly good job but it took a long time and it was a very involved, very slow process. I've heard of only three or four done by cutters in the past and they have left active participation in this.

When you do a penectomy you have to re-route the urethra, yes?

Yes, what I did with this is I knew where I was going with this in 1999 and I contacted my urologist in Hollywood [Florida], an old guy who was just about to retire and I talked to him very carefully and said "in the future I'm going to want the penis removed". And he said "OK, we can do a urethral relocation in the base of the penis".

So how do things like ejaculation and urination work when you've rerouted the urethra and no longer use the penis for them?

With ejaculation, just before you reach the peak, all the fluid is there at the base of the penis, and right before orgasm happens it's the urethra that acts like a rail gun and expels the semen. So when you don't use the penis, there's no force behind it. It just flows out.

What happens to the body parts after removal?

Quite a few [cutters] collect them. They preserve them, they put them in jars. One guy embedded his in plastic and now it's an ornament somewhere. This typically happens when you're in a master/slave dominant/submissive relationship and the submissive gives up his balls to his partner for keepsake. And then you get into this S&M thing where the dominant partner controls and regulates the libido of the submissive. Especially if the submissive is on say androgel where the turnaround time from full sexiness to limp dick is about on the order of a week. The reaction time for the transdermal is very fast. Whereas the injections wear off after two to three weeks. The half life of the testosterone I'm taking is eight days.

You mentioned consumption of body parts in another interview. Is that for real?

It is for real, yes. Some guys do that. Think about the Testy Festy, where they go there and every year there they have concentration of people who are into eating sheep and bull nuts and rocky mountain oysters. I know a few cutters that don't charge anything for their work, the only charge they have is that they get the nuts afterwards.

Is this something that you've tasted?

Yes, as a matter of fact they do taste a little like chicken. Actually I would have to say they taste as much like chicken as they do roast pork. But it all depends on how you cook them. If you cook them in salted butter then they might be saltier than they might otherwise be.

How do you like them cooked?

I went to a cutter's place and he was having an event where he cut a number of guys and I was assisting him there. And what I did is I cooked them up in some butter with some mushrooms. Quite good with a nice red merlot wine.

Cheers to that, Gelding.



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Date: March 27th, 2023 2:09 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

Sup Frank

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Date: March 27th, 2023 11:13 PM
Author: Startling purple hospital

To be fair,

Thanks, FLW!

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Date: March 27th, 2023 1:29 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

We've got a great list going so far, but I'd like to potentially double it if possible. We're aiming for comprehensive.

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Date: March 27th, 2023 2:26 PM
Author: crystalline exhilarant stage

The delicious part of this is that he can't respond to anything here because he knows it's true. Sure, he'll squabble over the minutia, but we've got him fully pegged. He's bitchmade.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5313254&forum_id=2#46103604)